The Story Of Me.

A Life Worth Living

Alissa's P.O.V.

Was I still sleeping? Did I die? Is this what dying feels like? Let's recap everything right here, right now. I remember cutting my self, passing out,and now I am with my brother and sister. I am so confused. Am I dreaming or am I dead? I was humming and walking around. I started singing The Final Episode by ASKING ALEXANDRIA. Despite my love for that song, I changed it to I Need To Know by Sleeping With Sirens. I was humming along to the song. It reminded me of these guys, they loved each other, one of them died, and the family wouldn't let the other guy go to the funereal. 

I close my eyes for a few seconds, when I open them I see myself. I am lying in a hospital bed. Anna, Rick...they are crying. The beeping of the monitor is slowly beeping. But where is Jack? Why isn't he here? Does he not care about me? I stand over my own body. "Make a choice. Live or Die?" I look at the people I have grown to love. Even Alex was in here, even after he left us for that skanky girl. He looked heart broken. "I want to live, I want to stay with my new family." I look at my brother, gosh he looks healthy and happy. "I am glad you're happy. You deserve it. I love you sis." He gave me a small smile as he faded. "I love you to." I whispered. 

I open my eyes but shut them quickly due to the lighting in the room. "Turns the lights off please and thank you." I mumble under my breath. I heard a gasp and someone grab my hand. I know it's Anna, I can tell she has soft hands. "There you go kiddo." I heard Ricks gruff voice. I smile a small weak smile and open them. Alex, Anna, and Rick look guilty for something. "Wheres Jack?"  whisper. I don't remember anything that happened besides trying to kill myself. What happened? "He had to take care of the gym for a while, he'll be back soon I promise you." Anna told me I watch her as she takes out her phone as it starts to ring and walk out without another word. It kind of stung how she would take a phone call like that instead of making sure I was okay just like any other mother would do, but I guess she only sees me as a kid she adopted. Which kind of hurts if you think about it. 

I look at the guys who are also on their phones. I look down to see that the cuts I made are already healed. How long was I asleep? I see my phone and earbuds with a card and flowers next to it. I grab the card and read it,

Hey Alissa,

I don't know if you will read this or what. I want to let you know that I love you so much. I hope you feel the same way. I want you to wake up. I hope you wake up. The doctor says you are leaning towards death instead of life. If your reading this you know that I will protect you with both arms and never let you die or get hurt like that again. I love you. I know we had our fight before you tried to kill yourself but I love you to much to let you go. If you die I die with you. I won't let you go that easily. What I said was out of line and I know that now. Just know that I need you. So does Rick and Anna. They love you. Even if they don't say it or show it. They do. Alex to he wouldn't leave the room at all while you were there. He loves you even after everything that happened between you two. He still cares. So do I. If you are reading this text me or call me so I know your okay. 

                                                Love, Jackie Boy

I was almost in tears I grab my phone and speed dial his number. 

"Hello?" I can tell he hasn't slept in a few days just from the tiredness in his voice.

"Hey Jackie Boy, I just want you to know that I love you to. And I'm still alive." I say trying not to cry.

"Oh my gosh, you're alive! Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god!" He repeated which made me giggle. 

"I will be there in about a half hour!" He yells then hangs up the phone. I look at the clock it's 6:30 P.M. Man that nap was enjoyable! Hehe.

I plug in my earbuds I put on Diary Of Jane by Breaking Benjamin,

"If I had to I would put myself right beside you// So let me ask you// Would ya like that?//Would ya like that//And I don't if you say// This love is the last time// So now I'll ask// Do ya like that?//Do ya like that?//NO// Somethings getting in the way// Somethings just about to break// I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane// So tell me// How it should be?!// Try to find out// What makes you sick as I lie down// Sore and sick//" 

My amazing singing skills were interrupted by two strong arms pull me into a sitting position, while wrapping them around my waist. I look over to see Jack, his shoulders shaking a tiny bit. He's crying, hopefully it's tears of joy. "Don't ever scare me like that again!" He exclaimed. "I won't I am so sorry. I just thought that you didn't love me." I whisper looking away from his piercing eyes. "I will always love you, don't say that ever again because I am yours as much as you are mine. Just know that, okay?" I nodded my head, he pulled me to his chest as he held onto me I just realized how much I need him. "I love you to much to let you go." I mumble in his chest. I felt vibration go through his chest, he was chuckling at my statement. "Why is it funny?" I ask him pouting. "Because I could not understand anything you just said." He laughed at me, I pull away and he pouts at me. "I said, I love you to much to let go." he smiled at me, "You will never have to." I snuggle back into his chest with a small smile. It is not a forced one either.

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A/N: It has been so long since I have updated you guys have the right to throw rocks at me...