I just want to fucking die right now.
I don't feel anything anymore except for fucking emptiness.
I feel bad for feeling empty.
Because there are people who love me.
But I don't love myself and I can't keep trying.
I don't want to keep trying.
I just want to feel something.
It's like I said the other day.
I just feel like I'm watching myself do things, not actually doing them.
It's like I'm separated from my body.
It's like every time I try to build myself back up, I get knocked down by my own head.
It's like this body isn't mine.
I can't control anything.
I can't control how I feel.
I just can't handle it right now.
