im so fucking frustrated
i hate school so much i can never focus on anything and im falling behind a LOT especially because im absent a lot because im depressed and i get migraines a lot and now i can't play softball because i hurt my shoulder and physical therapy is taking forever to complete and im just so pissed off at the world and im gaining weight and im so sick of being alive and honestly im feeling suicidal but when am i not you know and im gonna get through it like i always do but right now i just hate being alive and i wish i could control something in my life but i really cant because my mental illness makes it impossible to complete anything or get satisfaction out of anything. i honestly just hate my life but ya know i pretty much always hate my life so why do i still complain
