it feels as though there is a darkness invading my body whenever you're around.
halfway across the country, and you still broke me. you make me feel worthless.
and yet, i am drawn to you. i still want to know if you even want to speak to me. i still want to know how you are, and how she is, and if you're half as happy now as you were with me.
but im trying to be stronger. i want to break again..it was so much easier being broken. it was so much easier to let myself go to you..it was so much easier to be abused...how is that even possible?
maybe it would be easier to blame myself.
