Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever love deeply again.
Because every time I get close, I push it away.
In fear I'll get hurt
In fear of my parents
In fear.
I get scared to love.
Sometimes, I wonder if anyone will ever love me again.
Because I'm broken.
Because I'm ugly.
Because I'm fat.
Sometimes, I wonder if it matters.
If they don't want me because I don't look like a Barbie doll, why do I care?
If they don't love every broken piece of me that is Elmer's Glued back together, why should they waste my time?
But sometimes, I wonder why.
Why am I never good enough.
Why am I never pretty enough.
Why am I never popular enough.
Why do I feel like I'll never love again.
Just..wondering.
