Be Happy
Penelope's
Napakabigat parin ng loob ko. Ang mga luha ko ay patuloy paring pumapatak mula sa mga mata ko. Bakit naman ganon'? Bakit kaylangan pang ang ina ni Maddox ang nakabangga sa mga magulang ko? This fate is so fucking twisted.
Alam kong walang kinalaman si Maddox dito at aksidente lang ang nangyari pero kung hindi dahil sa ina nito ay sana buhay pa ang mga magulang ko. Maaga akong nawalan ng mga magulang ng dahil lang sa nagtaksil ang ina nito. I love Maddox but how can I be with the son of the woman who killed my parents? Paano ako tititingin sa mukha ni Maddox kung ang maaalala ko lang ay ang mga magulang ko? I don't think I will ever look at Maddox and his father the same way. How can I be happy with him now? How can we be happy together?
Dahan dahan akong naglalakad patungo sa puntod ng mga magulang ko. I miss them so much. I miss the sound of their voices and their laughter. We were a happy family but it all banished because... because of a cheating woman.
Napaluhod nalang ako sa harap ng puntod ng mga magulang ko habang umiiyak. Pakiramdam ko sasabog na ang dibdib ko sa sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman ko.
"Mom, Dad. I'm so sorry. I miss you so much..." I sobbed, though I have no idea what I am sorry for. Dahil ba sa nagsasaya ako kasama ang anak ng babaeng pumatay sa kanila o dahil halos makalimutan ko na sila dahil nabulag ako sa sobrang kasiyahan.
"Mom, dad, please... sabihin niyo sa akin kung ano ang gagawin ko. I don't know what to do anymore." I cried looking at their tombstones. "Only if you were here."
Every time I was bewildered or discouraged, my parents were always there to cheer me up, constantly patting my back, telling me that I did a good job. If they are here, they would know what is the right thing to do. Should I forgive Maddox's mother and just forget about it? I don't think I can.
I don't know how long I stayed in front of my parents tombstones, or how long I cried. I just know that I felt so dehydrated and weak to continue crying. I watch as the sun set in the sky when I felt my phone vibrate.
"Penelope, where are you?" Nag-aalalang tanong ni Cara mula sa kabilang linya. "I heard what happened. Nasaan ka? Pupuntahan kita."
"I'm here at the memorial park." Nanghihinang sagot ko.
"I'm coming. Don't go anywhere just wait for me." Bilin ni Cara.
"Please don't tell Maddox." I plead. And upon hearing his name, I sobbed again.
"I won't, I promise." Cara then ended the call and I felt alone again.
Looking at my phone, ngayon ko lang napansin na napakadami ko palang natanggap na missed calls at texts mula kay Maddox. He left fifty missed calls and dozens of text messages but I didn't bother reading any of it or calling him back.
I don't hate Maddox. Wala siyang kasalan at alam ko iyon but I need time away from him to think. I know I'm hurting him again but I am hurting too but it does not mean that I am going to leave him.
Nang dumating si Cara ay agad ako nitong niyakap. Napa-iyak nalang ako ulit.
"It's okay, Penelope. I'm always here for you." Cara caressed my back.
"My parents, Cara. I miss them." I sobbed.
"I know." I heard her sob as well. "I miss them too."
"Tell me, ano nang gagawin ko? I can't..." My voice broke while Cara wiped my tears.
"You don't have to do anything right now, Penelope. Alam ko kung gaano ka nasasaktan ngayon but that pain will eventually go away. I promise." Cara smiled and fixed my messy hair.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Deal ✔
Random[Warning: Some chapters of this story will be consisting mature contents. Read with your own risk, you've been warned] It was a simple deal. A one night stand, Penelope made sure there were no strings attached. It was simple and straightforward but...
