USEFUL ➴ Illumi x Reader

XXXIII. Random wasn't a good idea

> F/B - favourite beverage/drink
> S/C - skin colour 

Holding a F/B cup between my hands, I listened to Chrollo, we were both sitting on the couch and, apparently, Kurapika had put a chain in his heart, forcing him not to use nen. He'd get the sweet death if he rebelled. He couldn't tell any troupe member, Kurapika was a smart cookie. I sighed, didn't manage to run fast enough from this dude as I saw him, disappointing...

"Well, Chrollo- Fun thing I remembered just now..." I pointed my S/C index finger to him, my bad mood coming over again. "YOU JUST WENT AND TOLD THE ZOLDYCKS THAT YOU KNEW ME."

"Why... Y/N... Don't be mad at me for that~" Chrollo just shrugged it off, not feeling guilty at all. My life was about to get worse, I could already feel it and I shuddered just from the initial taste of it.
"No, no and... NO! You know what? I'm done getting dragged by you guys into dangerous situations and honestly, a bit of peace and quiet is all I need." He didn't seem to understand what I had just said as he furrowed his eyebrows and absent-mindedly patted his leg.

"Aren't you happy that you have so much writing material all over the place?" he scooted over, and I held all my cells in place, he had done it in such an animalistic way. My urge to escape didn't diminish when the great Danchou placed one of his large hands on the other side of the small couch we were sitting in. Trapping me between him and his large, muscled arm.

This could've been great, in a sexual way, if he wasn't oozing bloodlust through the roofs, my skin was revoking its function and asking to do something else at the sheer intensity of his display of power.

Talking about sexual ways, didn't have any of that in the last long months. Wonder why... Oh yeah! Being dragged along with killers and thieves is not a good way to meet someone you'd be interested in and keep them alive.

That aside, I stared into the dark greyish brown eyes of the beast. "I am. So happy. Couldn't be happier!" The sarcasm in my voice grew stronger, his eyes seemed to hesitate to face my unwavering bitching. "Oh wait. I COULD! If only I had time to write ANYTHING instead of being dragged by someone else this time."

My S/C hand fell on the arm blocking me and my nails dug in. A fun trick Feitan taught me. Small streaks of blood started to land on the couch after travelling down his arm. He didn't move it, I rose my eyebrow, continuing my whisper yelling. "And now, I can't even write comfortably because I have to hide from a certain family of assassins. If being insanely beautiful was enough to make the crazy lady want to marry me into the family, wonder what being associated with spiders will make me... hahah."

My grip kept tightening and after what seemed like way too much time for a staring contest, he gave up, grabbing the place my nails had sunk into carefully. A weak attempt to stop the bleeding.

I got up instantly, instincts kicking in. "It may not seem like it but I have needs too... So no, thank you, have a great adventure, I may meet you somewhere along the way. Or not... Who knows... Maybe I'll find a good boy, marry him and live forever hidden in a nice cottage surrounded by the nothingness of some rural place. Maybe I'll eat sweets until I drop, sugar overdose..."

After what I had been through, it seemed like a fine plan. Wouldn't I grow bored of such plain life? I'd think about it after finding a place and writing for a while.

My eyes flickered back to the black-haired man, "Now if you don't mind..." I forced a polite smile, gave him a goodbye wave as I turned to meet my employee, Lin.

We talked a lot of stuff out and I planned to come back by the end of the year just to make sure everything was working out, Lin was put in charge while I had to be gone and I trusted her.

Time went by too fast at Chiaroscuro and my mind kept telling me I had to leave. After ignoring it for a while, I got up, said farewell to Lin and walked out.

Chrollo was laying against the wall next to the door, a cold wind rose up and I shivered. "You've changed, stepping up for yourself... So, for once I'll give in. Get ready because I'm only counting until 30, if you're close enough, you'll be dragged by me." A smirk played on his pale lips as my eyes widened. He was such a playboy, ugh, I was into playing this game though. I got my legs ready, steadied my nen and ran away as soon as he said "One~~."

I just ran, until my legs hurt, until my lungs burnt begged for air and I found myself at my hotel room, packed as quickly as I could. There wasn't much to pack anyway. I left to catch a random zeppelin. Now it was just me and a huge backpack. Ready for some peace and quiet. Maybe I could write something interesting.

Everything I saw was beautiful, snow covered mountains, the sunset on all kinds of beaches, different coloured sands. Every time the zeppelin stopped, I left and explored. The plan was always the same, finding an inn, writing until I felt like exploring the area, sleeping a bit and leaving the place for another random location. Never believed in destiny but random picking had taken me to some funny places.

I grew tired of it sooner than expected, three weeks and I felt lonely and useless walking around. All I had written felt too simple, too basic... But what else could I do? I wondered as I adventured inside this really calm forest after jumping out of the last zeppelin. Pure boredom. Maybe I could keep doing the whole jumping out of flying stuff, that'd raise the randomness...

The sun started to be blocked by the big trees and the previously magical green forest turned slightly too dark, too scary... Should I go back? I thought that but my eyes landed on a big - more like humongous - white dog. Soulless eyes staring at me. Wait... this can't be it...

Oh crap, please, no.

Author's Note : Huuuuuuuuh got some free time so may write more noww!!!!! LETS GO BITCHES

BTW I'D LIKE SOME FEEDBACK, I HAD A PLAN BUT IDK ANYMORE XD

> Edited 14.02.2021 <