Beautiful Crazy

Part 35: I've missed this

April 27th - Alabama

I jumped up out of my bed with tears going down my face and sweat dripping off my body.

Noah's laugh, Noah's smile, Noah's goofy laugh, Noah... it's always Noah.

He's been in my dreams every night since I left Georgia. He won't leave my mind, grandpa says it's a sign from the sweet lord above I'm starting to think he's right.

I grab the bear that Noah got me from build a bear workshop back in October. I then make my way to Clays room. When I open the door he's already holding out his arms with a sad smile.

I climb into his bed and squeeze the bear to me. "You know he's called me non stop worried sick about you, he really loves you Elizabeth."

I sniff back the tears and cast my eyes down on the bear. "I love him too." I whisper mainly to myself.

"Then why don't you go back to him?"

"Because I hurt him and I know that he wouldn't take me back after how I left."

"Then we must not be thinking of the same Noah because he would take you back in a heartbeat."

Maybe.
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Clayton wakes me up the next morning for school I don't know what I would do without him; probably die.

After doing my main morning things I go into my closet and put on my blue sundress with brown sandals. Once that is done I take my hair down from it's braid and let it do it's own thing.

I go down the stairs and find grandpa sitting at the table reading on his iPad. I take a peak over his shoulder and my once happy mood goes back to depressing mood, grandpas reading a article about Auburn footballs spring training and Noah's picture happened to be right up under the article he's reading.

I wonder if he's in Auburn?

I push down my sad feelings and turn them into being happy for Noah, he's trained hard for this, he deserves it.

"Hey grandpa," I give him a hug and take a seat on the kitchen island so I can eat my breakfast.

"Hey kiddo!" He loudly says as he slams his iPad down on the counter rather quickly. "It's fine grandpa, I already saw what you were reading, I'm not gonna have another episode again."

Grandpa frowns and opens up his arms, I lean into him and give him a hug. "I love you girly, and that boy does too. You know how many times he has called me asking if you were ok or if you had another man." Grandpa blabbers out while waving his arms in the air.

"Really?" Grandpa slams his hand over his mouth then slowly brings it down.

"Shittt I wasn't supposed to say anything." I laugh then hop off of the chair.

"Bye grandpa, I'll see you later." I give him one last hug then drive myself to school.

When I arrived to my old school back in November people asked a lot of questions, I simply told them that I missed home but Clayton would go all crazy and start hitting people when they asked questions that made me uncomfortable.

Getting out of my car I walk back into the familiar school and walk over to my locker, I put my history book in my bag and go to my home room.

I can say that I have been more happier since moving back home but the split between me and Noah has taken its toll on my happiness.
Clayton is the main one to notice he's always checking up on me and making sure I'm not having another episode.