Isnt it funny how I dont wanna get my hopes up for anything now.
I dont even get excited for shit now because I know most everything gets ruined. Or will be soon.
But dude I am praying that this is something.
If this works out it would be so fucking good for me. It could change all my opportunities.
So I am begging. Karma, the universe, god. Whatever is out there. Please just give me a good thing for once without ripping it away from me and replacing it with pain.
I fucking need this. Just once.
Please just let me have this one thing.
Please just let me keep something good for just a while.
