The Hidden Color Of Winter: (KnB/ Haizaki x OC Fanfict)

Chapter 19: Knowing

Chapter 19:

"I love you."

"There's no need to thank me... for I love you."

"It's okay.... I'm here now."

"For entrusting your friend on me, I'm sure to take good care of her."

"You should tie your hair often."

"It's another 'Mi' is another term for 'my' and Yuki is a part of your name."

"But then again... I just like them, their just pretty... but I love you and you're beautiful..."

"Haizaki Shugo by the way."

All of those memories of him are gushing in my mind, how he used to be sweet to me, how he used to be so kind to me, how he used to be the perfect guy for me.

But...

All of those...

Are nothing but a mask...

Lies and his dramas...

He's just acting none-the-less.

"Tsk... why am I acting like this? He's not a God to begin with..." I tried to convince myself as I wipe my tears away. Sooner or later I heard the lightning strike as I look up into the sky. Sooner a droplet of water fell down my cheeks as it ran down as if they were tears. It doesn't matter now. It is raining, so no one would probably notice if I'm crying. So on, in the cold rain, I let myself get soaked wet.

How dramatic could this life get?

This are just simply like fiction, but what's happening to me now is surely none fiction. How annoying.

This is not a telenovella for pete's sake!

But then again, my mind isn't giving any proper answers. I just continued moving mindlessly through the road.

My heart is crushed...

"He's not a God..." I continued to convince yself as I walk around not minding the lightning and the raid pouring hard.

I don't really know what /I am feeling.

I just can't understand my brain and my heart.

How could people be so sadistic? How could they play with other's emtion?

Why is the world so mean to me?

My mother died...

My brother died...

My father grew cold...

And the one I truly love, just played with me...

"I hate the world so much..." It is true, I hate the world. It took every happiness away from me. My life just simply sucks at everything. Why do I have to suffer such pain? Do I deserve this? What did I do wrong? Am I cursed or something?

Or I'm just an idiot, a fool to fall for his trap...

Emotional turmoil...

Now questions are bugging me over and over.

This is torture..

"Yukino!"My mind is playing with me again... Someone is calling out for my name yet there's no one around. My mind is just floating somewhere that I don't care if there's anyone there.

"Yukino watch out!" By that, I heard a car's hunk as I later saw a blinding light from the car as well. I just observe the car, didn't dare to move as I'm completely mindless.

Better of If I was to die right here...

"Yukino!" This is the third time already! I look up as I saw a familiar red head looking all worried at me. We were down the ground as he was securing me in his arms. He just save me.

I wish he made me saw heaven though.

At the moment I just can't simply act like a emotionkess robot anymore. I buried my face on his chest as I started crying aloud before I even knew it.

"Why is the world so mean to me?" I uttered between sobs as he later place his hand on my head before his embrace on me tightens.

"The world is always cruel..." I'm not sure If I heard it right, but...

I just don't care...

I just want to cry out loud.

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Where the hell am I? Of course... I'm obviously in my bed, are all of those nothing? Are those nothing but nightmares.

Then again after seeing my bruises, I found out that everything that happened was real.

"Pfft... still hoping eh?" I told myself as I raise from my bed.

But wait...

HOW DID I GET UP HERE?!?

I quickly exited the room as I ran directly to the living room, making my clueless cat follow me. I'm sorry Nat, I just have to go to find the red emperor. Now, where is he?!

"Ah, good morning Yukino." O_o

"HUAAAAAAAAAA!" And there he was sitting on the coach beside where I am standing. How did he get there? And since when was he there. "Akashi-kun!"

"What's wrong with greeting you a good morning?"

"At least not in a shocking way!" Things then went through my brain little by little. "How did you-"

"I'll explain myself later, first you need to eat your breakfast." Ah... okay? -_-a

And I did, there were pan cakes and all, bacon and eggs and other foods in the table. Geez, did he prepared all of this?

"Ne, Akashi-kun..." I uttered out of the blues as I place my glass of water back in the table, I look at him straight into the eye seriously as he just look at me with curiousity. "How did you-"

"Like I said, I know everything... and I just knew Shugo quite well."

"Then why do you care for me so much?" I uttered seriously wanting for a direct answered, he sighed as he look at me in a rather sad smile.

"You'll know when the time comes..." A conclusion then pass into my mind.

"I'm engage to you, no?" I just read so many stories to jump in such conclusion, but who knows. He's one of the riches kid around and I'm on the top of it. If the Akashi and Ayana corp would be together, with no confusion our business might be well known throughout the world.

"It's not confirm yet, but... who knows when our parents will decide." His father is secretive, I guess and I'm not close to dad. Who knows when we'll know the truth.

"I see... I understand now."

"I'm sorry." Apologizing for something that he found out first?

"There's no need." I understand it so clearly, he isn't sure. I'm sure is father is hard to read as this guy.

There was then a short silence between us, this so much reminds me in my first meeting with that bastard. I hate to admit it...

"Thank you Akashi-kun." I just said it out of the blue, he smiled.

"Now, I'll take my leave." He stood up from the table, but before he could leave the dining room.

"Wait." I uttered stoping him on his tracks as he shifted his gaze back on me.

"Is there anything else you'd like?"

"yes." knowing what I actually like, the old cold me is returning.

"Hmm?"

"Jumping in such hypothesis... I would like to get to know you."

I'm dead serious now.

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long time no update~! hah! I never have time to face the laptop because of our little movie, if I was to face it, it would be about the movie again... kk I'm glad my ideas hasn't fade yet T^T

now if you excuse me I have to translate the script!