⚠️SUICIDE⚠️ ⚠️CHARACTER DEATH⚠️
(this is Zaks Diary)
January 21, 2021
Dear Diary, today was good! Me and my best friend planned on meeting up in one week. I am so exited for it. I have been best friends with the man for what three years almost? And we still haven't seen eye to eye. But that's going to change. Its going to change February 1, 2021. I can't wait to meet him!
January 22, 2021
Dear Diary, today didn't go as planned, but that's okay! Today me and badboyhalo planned out what we are going to do when we meet up. I am so happy I finally get to meet him! AHH! Also my mom got me cupcakes from the store. BEST MOM EVEA!
January 23, 2021
Today was a really bad day for me. My dad Racoo went missing, witch is like my worst nightmare. I really hope he's okay :( I love you Racoo so so much. We will find you soon okay buddy! But other then that I was also sad today because bad said that I wasn't his Bestfriend. He said Sapnap was. That made me jealous. Anyways bye Diary.
January 24, 2021
We found Racoo! Turns out he just went to our neighbors house. I am really happy we found him! So today was really good because we found Racoo, and because I got two videos uploaded today! I am so proud of my self. My fans love uploads too, so it was a win win.
January 25, 2021
Today was fine, just a normal day. You know? Me and bad playing minecraft, flirting a little, and recording videos. I didn't do anything today because, I just stayed in side. But either way today was a good day!
January 26, 2021
Today was good. I talked to bad a little bit, and I even streamed! I hadn't screamed for over a month, so my fans loved it. I died my hair, and talked to bad that stream. I also did the glasses stream I had to do. Everyone loved it! I am really glad that today went well. I love my fans and badboyhalo so so much.
January 27, 2021
AHHH! Me and bad are meeting up so so soon! I am so excited to see what he looks like in real life! And what his hugs feel like! I can't wait to see.
January 28, 2021
Today I packed all my clothes into a bag and got ready to leave. I was flying to bad because he has a really bad fear of planes. I still love him though.
January 29, 2021
Today was nothing new. Me and bad talked a little, and I got my favorite dinner with my parents! I really do love my parents so much. I am very thankful for all they do for me. I love you mom and dad. (all though they will never read this)
January 30, 2021
ME AND BAD ARE MEETING UP IN TWO DAYS! OMGOMGOMG I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS! IT'S REALLY HAPPING! Don't worry though I am going to bring this book with me just so I can keep writing. This helps with stress, and it's like venting to someone.
January 31, 2021
Oh my fucking god. I am going to see bad tomorrow. I am literally so HAPPY! UGH!! I just want to see him now!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOGMGGOMG
February 1, 2021
I am writing this on the plane. It kind if stinks in here. There is a random person next to me. I wonder if they are reading what I am writing. Oh wait never mind. They are sleeping. Well I'll see you guys when I get there!
February 2, 2021
I DID IT. I MEET UP WITH BADBOYHALO! I AM SO HAPPY! HE TOLD ME TO SLEEP IN HIS GUEST BEDROOM, WITCH IS WHAT I AM IN RIGHT NOW. I AM SO EXCITED! TOMORROW WE ARE GOING TO STREAM AND WE ARE GOING TO HANG OUT AND HUG AND LAUGH AHHH!!
February 3, 2021
This is new. But badboyhalo asked me out. I know what your thinking. "asked you out?!? How???" well we were eating at a sandwich place. (The sandwiches were really good) and he said he loved me! He said he has loved me for a year now! I am so happy! I love him too!
February 4, 2021
Me and badboyhalo started dating. I wonder when we are going to tell the whole world this. I don't even know if my parents will still support me if they know I am gay. I really hope they do though.
February 5, 2021
I love bad so much. Oh my god I love him. He's amazing.
February 6, 2021
We kissed. WE FUCKING KISSED GUYS! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! I KISSED BADBOYHALO! YESSSS! I COULDN'T BE MORE HAPPY OMGOMGOMFG!
February 7, 2021
Me and bad planned on moving in with each other. I couldnt be more happy. Every day with him feels like a dream. A dream you never wanna wake up from.
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April 9, 2021
Hey guys. It's me. Skeppy. I am so sorry I didn't get to this book. I thought me and bad would be forever. But we broke up. I don't know why, but we did. He told me one day he fell out of love.
April 10, 2021
I don't know what to do anymore. I feel worthless. I feel unwanted with out him. He was my happiness. Now I don't have anyone. I don't want anyone but him. And no one wants me.
April 14, 2021
Bad started dating someone. A girl. A girl. They look so happy together..
June 8, 2021
I am going to end it here. I can't do this anymore. I can't live without him. I can't live knowing his happier with someone else. I can't. I am going to die. I don't eat anymore, I don't want to live, I don't drink water, I don't even break most of the time. I love bad with all my heart and that is never going to change. I love you bad.
June 10, 2021
Goodbye. Goodbye world. I loved you all.
