I'm Secretly In Love With Her

31.

M I N A

Reaching the cliff, Chaeyoung helped me to go up on the big rock. We beside each other and admire the beauty of city lights with the shining stars above.

"There are plenty of stars than the last time we got here." I said looking up at the sky.

"Yeah, but you know, there's only one star shining so bright." She said.

I look at her and she was busy looking at the stars too.

"Really where?" I asked.

She then looks at me, she smiled before answering my question.

"Right here, the star is beside me."

Now my heartbeat is a mess. It's beating so fast again, like every time she tells her cheesy lines.

"Mina, you're blushing." Chaeyoung teased.

"It's your fault." I said and pouted.

"And why us that?" She asked and turn her body to me.

"Because you always make my heart flutter too much." I said and she giggled.

"I always do that?"

"Yeah, you always do." I said looking into her eyes.

"Chaeyoung..."

"Yes, Mina?"

"831 224." She looked at me confusedly.

"Huh? What's that?" She asked.

"Secret, you better find out what it means." I said and giggled when I see her cute confused look.

831 224, it's a code. A code you use to tell someone you love them.

831 is I love you. 8 for the eight letters of the word, 3 for the three words, and 1 for the one meaning of the word. 

224 means today, tomorrow, and forever.

I was staring at her for a full minute and she is still thinking of what was the numbers are all about.

I grab her hands and she looks at me.

"You don't need to think of it right now." I said.

"But I want to know it already. Can't you tell what it means?" She asked and I shake my head.

"Please..." She cutely said.

The tiger became a cub. How nice.

"No, that won't affect me." I said and pinch her nose lightly.

I laugh when she whines. Never knew a cold-looking CEO can cutely whine like this.

"You're so cute." I blurted out and she beams at me.

"I know that already." She said.

"Tsk, you're so full of yourself." I said and she sticks her tongue out.

We were in total silent and I just watch Chaeyoung playing with my hands that is on top of her lap.

"Did you enjoy Mina-yah?" She softly asked.

"Yeah, I always enjoy being with you." I truthfully said and she looks at me smiling showing her cute dimple.

"Why do you love poking my dimple?" Chaeyoung asked when I just poke her dimple.

"I don't know, I just love poking it." I said and poking it again.

There was a cold breeze pass through us making me shiver.

"You cold?" I nodded my head.

She was about to remove her blazer when I stopped her.

"Why? You said you are cold?"

"Yeah, but you're going to feel cold when you let me wear it." I said and she pats my head.

"I am fine, as long as you are fine, I am fine." There she goes again, making my heart go crazy.

"But I don't want you to get cold." I softly said.

She was about to say something when I move closer to her and hug her waist, placing my arms under the blazer.

"I'd rather hug you than wearing your blazer." I said placing my head on her chest.

Her body vibrates when she chuckled.

"I like it when you get clingy." She said caressing my hair.

"You don't love it? Just like?"

"Of course I love it Minari." She said.

"Won't you hug me back?" She chuckled again.

"You're such a baby." She said and hug me tight.

I am your baby.

We watch the star while being in each other's arms. This feels great, I want more of this.

"Do you want to go home already?" She asked and I shake my head.

"I want to stay here with you more." I mumbled.

"Arrasso." She said.

"Mina..."

"Hmm?"

"Would you still bond with me after knowing that I am attracted to girls?"

I am too, Chaeyoung.

"Of course, why would I even not bond with you just after knowing that you are attracted to girls?"

"I don't know, maybe you'll get disgusted?"

"Of course not, how can I do that if I am surrounded by gay friends." I said and we both laugh.

I released from the hug and look at her.

"Do you... Do you like someone?" I asked.

"Yeah, I just don't like her, I love her already." Oww.

Why did I even ask that question, of course, she like someone.

"R-really? Why did you start loving her?"

"A long time ago."

"Does she know about your feelings?"

Why does my mouth keep asking questions that are hurting me right now?

"No, and I don't think she would ever know." She sigh.

"Why?"

"I just don't think she'll love me or even like me back."

Then just be with me Chaeyoung, I'll love you forever.

"You won't know if you won't tell her your feelings." I said.

Now I am giving her advice, how hurtful.

"You think I should confess my feelings to her?" She asked looking at me.

"Yeah, you should."

"But I'm scared of being rejected." She said and I smiled at her.

"It's okay to be rejected Chaeyoung. It's always part of our life. We just need to accept it."

"What if she already likes someone else?"

"Then accept it."

But sometimes it's hard to accept the fact that the person you love already has someone she loves.