August 24th- Book One in the May 3rd series

Chapter 57-sewerslide

Warnings ⚠: Child Abuse, Rape, Violence, Religion, Drug Use, Alcohol Use, Use of Slurs, Homophobia, Bullying, Mention of Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicidal Actions, Gun Use.

Damien's P.O.V.

-Monday, November 8th-

I watch him run out the garage door and turn right.

I try to go after him.

To apologize...

To do anything.

But I can't move.

Oh my God... What have I done?

I was supposed to play nice, until I killed myself.

I had a plan!

I...can't...

My legs give out from under me and I fall onto my knees onto the rough concrete.

What did I just do?

Fear spikes through me.

I put a hand on each side of my head and squeeze as hard as I can.

I let out a sob, putting my shaking hands to my mouth.

What the fuck have I done?

I can't...

I can't believe...

Oh my God, I did exactly what I promised him time and time again I wouldn't do!

He's never coming back...

He's never coming back.

This repeats in my head over and over again.

The only good person in your life...

You've hurt them beyond repair.

Josiah is never coming back.

You hurt him.

I have to apologize... I have to...

I have to....

I quickly stand and steady myself and I contemplate getting my motorcycle.

Before I can think about it too long, mom's car pulls in the driveway, blocking me in.

I guess I'm on foot.

I run past her car, not bothering to look at her.

I don't give a shit what she thinks.

As I head to his house I try calling his phone a million times.

I leave one message.

"Josiah, please...I'm so sorry, please call me back."

I then keep trying him over and over again.

I stop just outside his neighborhood.

What am I doing? He doesn't want me.

This fact hits me like a fucking bus.

He doesn't want me.

If he wanted me to apologize...

If he wanted to make things right...

He would have stayed.

Oh my God.

I was right.