Warnings ⚠: Child Abuse, Rape, Violence, Religion, Drug Use, Alcohol Use, Use of Slurs, Homophobia, Bullying, Mention of Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicidal Actions, Gun Use
Damien's P.O.V
-Thursday, September 16th-
"I...don't want to lose you. But, if it keeps you safe then, I guess it's what we have to do. I have to go. I'll...see you around. Walker."
I stuff my hands in my pockets and head away from him, farther into the school.
I don't think I'm going in the right direction for my next class. In fact, I'm going the wrong way.
It doesn't matter.
I go into the boys' bathroom to sulk, but there's people in here...
I could make them leave, but I don't have the energy.
I just...can't process what just happened.
When did Josiah Walker mean something to me?
Why is this so hard all of the sudden?
I'm going home.
I don't care anymore. I'm going home.
I wait in the bathroom for the bell to ring, and once it does, I sneak out and ride home quickly, ready for a drink...or twenty.
Pierre's car is in the driveway, but of course my parents are gone.
I wonder what all he has to do in a day anymore.
To be honest, looking after an empty house everyday seems really fucking boring.
Either way, I need to just get something to drink and go hide in my room, away from him.
I go inside and Pierre is nowhere to be seen.
I grab some random bottles from our always well stocked liquor cabinet, and I take them upstairs, going quickly.
I drop my book bag onto the floor and sit on my couch, opening the first bottle and beginning to drink it.
All I can think about is him...
Why the fuck does it hurt so badly?
After all, we were only friends.
Friends.
That's all we ever would have been, despite what I thought I wanted.
I could walk into that school, and pretty much get with any girl that I want, but none of them are interesting to me anymore.
I want him.
I liked being his friend, too.
How his eyes would light up when I would get him chicken nuggets or something else as equally stupid...
How his face would go red when I would call him cute...
And, oh my God, he's so fucking cute.
Every single time he would lean over me to check my work during tutoring...
I wanted to kiss him.
I... I can't keep this up.
I lay on my couch, which is too small for me to be laying on it, so my legs dangle over the armrest, but whatever.
It works.
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