Warnings ⚠: Child Abuse, Rape, Violence, Religion, Drug Use, Alcohol Use, Use of Slurs, Homophobia, Bullying, Mention of Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicidal Actions, Gun Use
Damien's P.O.V.
-Friday, October 22nd-
When I get the text from Josiah telling me everything is fine, I breathe a sigh of relief. For once, things are going our way.
About fucking time.
I can't believe I was so careless. I really need to watch myself. I've been slipping up lately.
I drive home, and as soon as I get home, I sneak over to the liquor cabinet and look at my options.
Wine. Vodka. Scotch.
I shrug to myself and grab a bottle of wine.
What the fuck, I could use a drink.
I take it upstairs and don't even bother with a glass. As if I'm not going to finish the bottle.
I sit in my bed and begin drinking.
Once I start drinking, I can't turn off my mind.
All of my worries swirl around in my head and make it turn to mush.
What will I do about my parents? If they catch me and Josiah...or if they find out that I don't want to be a part of the business...
What about Ethan and Hunter? And Logan?
How do I know that they're not just planning something?
I take another drink of my wine.
It's so sweet.
I have so much to worry about.
And Josiah...
God. I always have to be so, so careful with him.
So gentle.
It's not in my nature to be gentle.
But the only alternative is driving him away.
I can't be without him. I can't.
I take another drink, deciding to climb onto the roof to look at the stars.
I really like it out there. It's so quiet, except for the occasional sounds of the city around me.
I stand up and stumble a little bit. I look at the wine bottle and see it's already half empty. I shrug and open my window. The cold air feels so nice. I don't even need a jacket.
I climb out and onto my roof. I sit there, enjoying the silence and my drink. Hopefully, if I finish this off, I can actually sleep for a second.
Hopefully...
...
-Monday, October 25th-
I try to contact Josiah all weekend, but I can't get a hold of him.
I keep thinking about just showing up at his house, but he doesn't want his dad knowing about us...
I can't do that to him.
If he doesn't show up to school, then I'm allowed to worry.
He wouldn't skip unless he was really messed up...or dead.
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August 24th- Book One in the May 3rd series
RomanceDamien Cohen is one of the lead bullies in the high school. His parents are major criminals who run illegal trading. He is tall, muscular, and handsome, and all the girls in school want to be with him. Because of his lifestyle, Damien has a hard tim...