Two Missing Daughters

Chapter 50

November 1917, Tobolsk

Its my dear sister, Olga's birthday today and i woke up early to knit her a glove since its getting cold here in Rural Tobolsk. "Up early?" Tatiana says rubbing her eyes. "Yeah im knitting a gift for Olga" I say quietly as possible.

I turned on my lamp and knitted while humming a song. I opened the window a little bit and saw guards yawning and stretching outside. I waved to some people out too.

"Why are you up so early?" Anastasia asks as she yawned. "I dont know i woke up and tried to sleep but i cant" I said still looking at the people out. "I love it here i wish we can be here forever!" Maria exclaimed.

I got a newspaper and wrapped it on my gift for Olga she is still sleeping, Tatiana is fixing her hair while Maria and Anastasia chatted by the window. I looked at the mirror and combed my hair and braided it up. Its been a while since i had my hair up.

I hid my gift for Olga under my bed and joined Tatiana on a morning walk outside. Mama is sick and Alyosha is getting better. Maria is being more friendly with the guards.

Me and Tatiana walked silently while observing the flowers. We also built a swing nearby we made it ourselves.

"Do you think we'll be back at St. Petersburg?" Tatiana asks out of the blue.

"I dont know but i hope we do" I said as i looked down at my hands and started to dose off.

"You've changed" Tatiana says as she stopped walking and looked at me with a saddened face.

"What do you mean?" I said as i stopped walking too and gave her a lok confusion.

"You don't smile as much as you did before. You are not the joyful Sofia we knew before. Where is she? We miss her" She cried out as her eyes watered.

Silence fell between us. My eyes watered as i thought about what Tatiana said. I was very happy before i liked to converse and chat with the officers but now im not, just like what Tatiana said.

"Sofia, Tell me is there something wrong?" Tatiana says as she looked at me.

"Tatiana- i appreciate your concern but i don't want to talk about it" i said as i sat on the bench and putted my hand over my face.

I felt Tatiana's arm wrap around me. She stroke my hair trying to comfort me as i sobbed silently.

"Breakfast is ready!" I heard Anastasia yell. I wiped my tears away and walked away like nothing just happened.

I played on my food not feeling like eating anymore. I gave my gift to Olga and she loved it so much. "Why aren't you eating?" Papa asks. I said nothing as i continued to play on my food. "Sofia" Mama said in annoyed tone. "Maybe she just needs some rest." Tatiana tried to cover up for me. "What's wrong with her?" I heard Anastasia whisper.

I ended up eating half of my food. I went to the balcony and readed a book. "Oh there you are" Olga said as she stood next to me. I ignored her and continued reading my book.

"Why do you act like we are ghosts? We are there but you cant see us. Whats wrong?" Olga cried out.

"Can you please just leave me alone?" I said in a annoyed tone as i moved away from her presence.

"Fine but if there's anything wrong just tell me, im always here for you" She said as she walked out.

I don't know what happened to me, why am i acting like this? My goodness Sofia what has gotten into you? Remember what Tatiana said? Why don't you change that attitude! I said to myself while looking like a fool. "Hey Romanova! Have you gone crazy?" The guards said as they laughed at me. I felt embarrassed and walked away and ran back to our room.

I sat in my bed an continued reading my book while my hands shivered in cold. "You know you can lit up a candle right?" Maria said as she handed me a lamp.

I gladly accepted it and lited it up. I put my hands on top of it but its not working. I have a glove on and a sweater and a boots but its still very cold.

"Are you okay?" Maria asks as she sat next to me and putted her hands on my arm.

"Aren't you cold?" I ask as i wrapped the blanket all over me. Maria putted her hand in my forehead.

"Your ill! I'll go get Dr. Botkin" Maria says as she stood up and ran to go get Dr. Botkin.

I layed down to my bed with my blanket covering my entire body from head to toe. My candle is right beside me even though its useless.

I heard Dr. Botkin and Mama or Papa im not sure yet walk in the room with Maria.

Dr. Botkin checked up on me and he said i have a high fever and need to get more bed rest and relaxation. Oh and it was Papa, Mama is too sick.

I heard Olga walk in. She sat beside me and poured some hot tea. "Papa told me you were ill." She said as she stroked my hair.

"Are you cold?" I ask her, "A little" She replied, "She was shivering a while ago and i knew there was something wrong" Maria said as she combed her short hair. "Well take some rest and if you need anything just tell me" Olga said as she gave me a little kiss on the forehead.

A/N
I dont know how to continue this chapter anymore but i promise I'll make more good ones pleas give me time. Oh and i accidentally published it when its not even finished haha sorry for that. <3

-Svetlana