WHAT IF

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                My breath got high and faster
With the small kisses he laid on my body , from my ankle up to my thigh .
Each kiss brought a different kind of sensation , emotion , excitement ...
His tongue on my inner thigh brought up a small tiny moan escaping from my mouth .
               " Andrew......" Marco knocked hard on the door .
Andrew breathed out laying his head on my thigh .He seamed really irritated by the disturbance .
I smiled hard , trying hard to not laugh .
                " they just can't tell us be " Andrew said looking up to me .
He stood up , dressing me up properly . i just couldn't stop smiling hard , this was so funny to my side but making it nice that he was laughing too.
He opened the door and i got out first him following me from behind .
All eyes were on us , the curiosity on their faces was so obvious . In our seats we quietly sat , i tried to fight the smile but i couldn't .
I lost it immediately i looked at Andrew who had a very serious face on. I smiled then looked down to my legs .
               " what was that , i am sorry but i have to ask " Marco asked
               " i am sure all of us want to know" He added .
Andrew and i looked at each other , for real i had nothing to say
               " what do you thing it is , isn't it obvious " Andrew said
              " What exactly sir , is obvious" Emma asked bluntly .
              " i was dressing her up" Andrew said . Everyone kept quiet for awhile looking at us .
              " that long " Jordy asked as well . Even i couldn't buy it .
              " yes, " Andrew replied as he sipped his water .
              " its been since never to dress up someone or I in sweatpants , so it was hard " Andrew added .
I looked at him as others looked at me . They must have been waiting for answers from me .Though wants their to say . Him and I aren't kids and above all we are married.
              " am starving , can we eat ?" I said , immediately digging into mine .
Now that i had nothing to say and Andrew answered the way he felt like , they were forced to buy that so they dag in eating .
I could not stop smiling about what just happened between me and him .
It was exciting somehow each time it popped up in my mind .

             Marco's phone buzzed and he removed it from his pocket , he read the message with a smile then put his phone back , he raised his eyes to Andrew .
            " Stephan is arriving from Italy tonight " Marco smiled .
Andrew giggled .
            " she has been video calling me a lot these days wanting me to help her with shopping , choose food and all that " Andrew smiled .
I was eating my eyes down in my plate not wanting to raise my eyes to him i didn't want to see how bright he looked talking about her but his voice said it all .
              " she must be bored " Marco said .
              " she is sad actually " Andrew said .
              " she seamed so happy about her breakup and she ended it herself " Marco said .
              "You know Stephan , she is trying to cover up her sadness, i see it in her eyes" Andrew added.
My heart was freezing , i felt like ice was piercing me hard in my chest .
The table was silent only these two talking .
              " well i am glad she ended it with him "Andrew added .
I was forced to look at him after this statement . He was smiling enjoying , his face bright .
It hit me hard remembering Jordy's words when he was talking about how bright his face brightens as he talks about her .
Now the puzzle pieces add up its Stephan , the lady occupying his mind .
I looked at Jordy whose eyes were on Andrew , Jordy was smiling bright listening to his boss. Its her .
Marco as well was laughing .
           " at least she knows i didn't like them together but she will be disappointed to know your happy about her breakup" Marco smiled.
           " her breakup is to my advantage and i will let her know soon about my true feelings " Andrew proudly said .
Marco could not stop laughing , at this point my food was no longer tasty .
            " when will you meet her " Marco asked
            " i don't know , maybe tomorrow" Andrew said .
            " how long have known each other " Miss Ann asked .
            " well some really good time back in Italy " Andrew said .
            " How many years have they been " Marco said.
            " three years before my marriage " Andrew said
            " 10 years down the road already " Marco said.
            " that long how come we hadn't met you " Miss Ann asked
            " there was a lot happening  especially at that time , that's
why i didn't even come for his wedding " Marco said .
Andrew smiled at Marco , in simple terms this is Andrew's best friend .
              " how did you meet " i asked
              " the hardships faced together always turns people into best of friends " Andrew stated .I believe that as well , the hardships strengthen the relationship but i still know nothing lasts for ever , even the strongest of relationships get shaken sometimes and if not persistent enough they can fall apart.
                " much as the hardships were there , we needed a stimulant ,who turned out to be Stephan " Marco said
                " you know every relation needs two sides of the story , the battle side and the joyful side , if we only had the battle side of the story we would be comrades "  Marco said with a smile .
                " but because of Stephan we have the joyful part of the story " Marco added .
I see how important Stephan was to these two, she really has a big impact in there lives . I almost want to believe that the feeling i am having right now is the some as that Andrew felt with Leon.

               " what exactly does Marco do" Jordy asked.
Marco began explaining himself to everyone listening , my head through was still wrapped about Stephan , making think deep of what Andrew and i are doing , kissing , having lustful desires about each other with nothing like feelings for each other .
Are we friends with benefits now , or hit it when ever i feel like .
I guess my face expression was very clear to show everyone that i was far in my head and whatever was consuming me was not pleasant .
             " are you okay Valerie " Marco asked , his question dragged me back to the table, everyone staring at me .
I pulled up my lips into a big smile .
My speciality was pretending been doing it my whole life .
             " i am very fine , just consumed in the conversation " i said , hurriedly sipping my glass of wine, hadn't even noticed wine was already served .
             " since you drinking , Emma and Ray have drank as well , why don't you stay for the night instead of going back to your hotel " i said , brightly trying to change the atmosphere .
             " I really can not stay " Emma said 
             " come on,  we all know your single , there is no one waiting home , you too Ray so why don't we stay , drink , talk and laugh " i suggested .
I really felt the need to be hammered hard . I didn't mean to be mean to Emma and Ray but i know they were declining because they feared Andrew .
              " life is to short not to enjoy each moment , who knows this might never happen again " i added raising my glass up for a joined toss .
They giggled
               " sure , why not .The pleasure is mine to be here tonight " Marco said , raising his glass as well .
Miss Ann followed , Andrew , Ray and Emma joined .
              " what are we tossing for " Ray asked .
              " there is a lot to toss about , but at the moment lets toss to us being here today like this " Miss Ann said 
              " To Us " Andrew said and at once we tossed .
               " bottoms up " Marco hurriedly said ,  like he said we put the glasses on our mouths putting them down when they are empty 
               " let that be your last glass , your on strong tablets " Andrew said 
I smiled at him definitely agreeing with him .
At this moment it was not drinking that i needed, it was reassurance, answers to all the questions , someone to tell me exactly , why i was feeling like this at the moment and what this meant .
The night was great for real, we moved settling around in the living room, the fire place lit, bottles of wine, snacks , fruits and drinks were all over the place , everyone comfortable , different funny conversations being said . But still my head seamed to be stuck , i couldn't get over Stephan , nothing more was entering my head from all that was being said 
I smiled and laughed along , at times kept silent looking at the moving lips of the one speaking .
The phone rang suddenly bringing me back to the presence , it continued to ring bringing me to the realisation that it was just next to me , my eyes lingered looking for it and they landed on the ringing phone , it was Andrew's phone . Stephan the name read , i looked at the time she was calling , it was 1:45am here .
Andrew reached for the phone carrying it up .He moved away to the going towards the stairs , everyone was minding else where but i was watching him . He continued upstairs till he was no longer visible .
My eyes then on the clock counting how long that phone call was going to take . 20 mins and he was still not yet back , 19 more mins , i was now getting angry and breathless i stood up immediately .

               " are you okay Val" Marco asked , i simply smiled at them ,
               " yeah , just a bit tired , please excuse me and have a good night " i said to them .
As i walked i turned looking back at them
               " i am really glad and thankful for this moment and everyone here , thank you for giving me a chance to have fun with you all" i smiled , they all smiled back at me .
                " the pleasure is ours " miss Ann said
               " of course , thanks for having me" Marco said with a bright smile .
I smiled again then turned ,
               " good night Valerie " they said , i just shock my head continuing upstairs . was i really sleepy , no .
I felt like if i stayed there to count how long that call really took then i would be so hurt . i closed the door behind , slowly getting into my bed .