" Mrs Smith .." Emma quietly called . I removed my eyes from Andrew and lady , whom i strongly think its Stephanie. I made small footsteps away from the door then turned walking away slowly . This was just making my thoughts and suspicions so true . But now it was like i thought , i didn't know what to do . Would i have entered act like i saw nothing , or walk away like i have now . I walked till his office , i entered then sat in the sofas , my whole head was spinning , my legs were weak , filled with a lot of emotions that i could not explain .
Now that i have confirmed should i talk to him about it , or keep it to myself and continue with life .
Then why would Andrew kiss , hold me like its whole he ever wanted yet he is in love with her , right now and with out lying even tomorrow , i may yarn for his touch , kiss .
Tears flooded in my eyes , at the back of my mind i knew i had no right to be angry about this , i may be his wife but i have no right . Being here in this situation reminded me of the time when Andrew found me kissing Leon , did he feel like this , though i believe mine is more painful because now Andrew has imprinted himself on my mind , he has become someone i crave for .
" Mrs SMITH..." Loudly Emma called driving me out of my deep thoughts .
I turned looking at him, he was looking at me very vulnerably .
" Are you okay " he softly asked me . i just continued looking at him , my brain processing his words at a very slow rate .
" what !!!!!" I said , almost bursting out in tears .
" i am so sorry " Emma softly said .
" i ...have to ....go "i said standing up. I placed the food flask on
the table. I didn't trust my hands carrying the food or anything.
" I will escort you home " Emma said .
" no , no ..." I said the walked away , Emma opened the door for me swiftly i walked out , at this moment i didn't want to blink , tears would immediately start to drop .
" Val...." The voice i know well called . I stood looking in the direction of the meeting room where Andrew and the lady i suspect to be Steph were coming from. She was holding his hand tight like they were a married beautiful couple walking down the aisle , to be exactly honest she looked so good with him , they were perfectly fitted .
Andrew dropped her hand rushing to me . As he come close i wondered if i should be happy that he is rushing to me leaving her behind , because he is still rightfully lawfully mine , my husband . Much he was standing before me, my eyes were at the beautiful one standing far behind him , my eyes locked with hers wishing i could let her know that 'much as her hands were wrapped around him then , he is still coming back to me , where he should be and that he is mine , rightfully , lawfully and publicly . ' yet i still can not because his heart is behind there with her ." Valerie ..." Andrew called reaching out for my hand , i swiftly made a step back before he touched me . He turned looking back at her quickly then back to my teary eyes .
" Valerie that's Stephanie" he in way as he figured why i was in this state but that couldn't justify the situation.
" i figured " i hardly breathed out holding in my tears .
Like i was taught and expected of my mother and the Smith family , i should be graceful , understanding , enduring and not let stupid emotions drive me exactly what i am trying to do but i can't , i really can't , i want to shout , cry out loud , question him , throw stuff till they break .
" VALERIE.." He called .
I pushed back my hair to the behind breathing in hard ,
" i have to go" i sobbed then rushed away
" HEY!!!!....VALERIE......" He called following me from the behind . My footsteps got faster , bigger to elevator , praying it closes before he catches up.
"Va..." As soon as he reached than then elevator door closed .
Jordy was in the car seated waiting for me . I hurriedly opened the door getting .
"Valerie , what is wrong " in concern he asked .
" start the car ," i ordered
" Vale....."
" START..the car " i didn't give him the chance to say more . Immediately , silently he started the car , i looked behind at Andrew who was standing outside his building , he seamed frustrated at himself .
I slowly turned leaning back gently , i breathed out heavily , i closed my eyes not wanting to start crying in front of Jordy . Much as my eyes are closed i could feel his eyes on me through the front mirror .
I wanted to cry even more because i felt like i was being petty , i was acting childish and stupid .
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RomanceWe sometimes spend the biggest part of our lives regretting, complaining, crying, beating ourselves down and wishing that our lives were different, or we were some else or living lives the lives that others are living because of the pain, undesire...