✓ | The Clandestine Memoir (Fate's Transgression Series, #1) [UNDER REVISION]

Chapter 16

~•[Chapter 16]•~

SEISHA:

Was it a dream? What did she mean by that?

That scene had been playing inside my mind until now.

Is she me? Why is she making me remember something that I've forgotten? Retrieve what was lost? And those reminders I do not understand. What exactly did she mean by stopping the Crown Prince from executing his plan?

Wala akong maintindihan!

Gusto kong magwala ng slight dahil hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. What she said did not give my mind a break after my wake. It has been four days, and I am still bothered by it.

Who wouldn't? Who wouldn't be bothered when someone just told you things without explaining them, and that someone looks and talks exactly like you?

Sinong hindi mababaliw kung biglaan ka na lamang pagsasabihan ng taong kamukha mo at ang mga sinasabi niya pa ay bukod sa hindi ko maintindihan, nagbibigay ito sa akin ng nerbyos. Nawawalan ako ng ganang kumain, matulog, o kahit gumalaw.

I am a great overthinker, hindi ako makakampante kapag hindi ko malalaman kung ano ang rason sa mga bumabagabag sa akin.

Aside from her, the crimson moon also bothers me, which made me unable to sleep well. Binabangunot ako na nagiging kulay dugo ang paligid. I could agree that it was just a dream, a vivid dream— crystal clear dream, but it doesn't change the fact that dream is creepy.

I clearly remembered I was awake when that happened. Hindi maaaring panaginip iyon. Everything that is happening has literally stirred my sanity away from me!

Dumaan ang malamig na hangin dahilan para bumalik ako sa reyalidad. Sumasayaw ang suot kong lilac midi off the shoulder dress dahil sa lakas ng hangin.

Mukhang uulan ata.

Napatingin ako sa kalangitan. The sky was covered with clouds which gave the place a gloomy atmosphere. The wind blows north, and any time soon, there could be a storm.

Dumako naman ang tingin ko sa sahig, the withered leaves were flown away together with the petals of roses I unconsciously peeled. I'm in my garden, and my poor flowers did not do something wrong to meet the end of their cycle.

Wala akong ginagawa kanina pa kundi pinag diskitahan ang nanahimik na rosas dito. I am not fond of flowers because of my sensitivity to smell, which wasn't the case anymore since I'm inside someone else's body.

Yet, I still hate flowers.

"Your Highness." Hindi ako lumingon ng tawagin ako ni Helena. "Mukhang uulan, Prinsesa. Kailangan niyo pong sumilong at mag-merienda muna."

Sinunod ko ang sinabi niya. I sat on my favorite cozy chair with pastel colored fabric. I grabbed the lying cup of jasmine tea on an ivory colored wooden table as I stared into nothingness.

Ganito na ang mga galawan ko ngayon. Magaling na ako, at pu-pwede na akong gumala. But, I'm staying inside my ground, and not because of my social anxiety, nor my fear with the Crown Prince. I've been this patient and calm princess ever since I woke up.

Hindi na ako mabilis magulat at iniiwasan ko ang magsalita ng walang saysay. Bukod sa nagpapagaling ako, nararamdaman ko talagang may bago.

I can feel it was just my abnormal mind trying to make things complicated. But it always bothers me.

Every time I look in the mirror, I do not recognize myself. I can't distinguish who I was looking at or who I am talking to. This pair of golden iris just stared back at me, but somehow it felt unfamiliar.