✓ | The Clandestine Memoir (Fate's Transgression Series, #1) [UNDER REVISION]

Chapter 26

~•[Chapter 26]•~

SEISHA:

If my behavior is a scene that cannot be easily understand even with the greatest scholar of Zegordia, I can still not level with how foggy Lucius' intentions are.

Kaya ko pang aminin na wala akong sense kausap minsan, subalit, wala bang taong nagkaroon ng kumpyansa na tanungin ang binata patungkol sa kung gaano kahirap siyang intindihin?

Hindi ko mawari kung alin sa kaniya ang totoo at hindi. That annoying facial expression is too good to hide his intent, making me doubt my capability to communicate well.

Lagi kong iniisip ang mali ko dahil sa paraan ng pagtingin niya. I was always conscious about how others perceived of me but looking at that expression and his domineering eyes backfired every ounce of confidence I had.

He is too complex to deal with.

"Pwede ko bang malaman kung bakit naisipan mong bagyohin ang utak ko pagkatapos kong danasin ang halos dalawang araw na lagnat?"

"Do I have to explain in detail? You already know why."

This nonchalant man is good at keeping my high blood pressure rise above normal.

Pinagsiklop pa nito ang kanyang mga daliri at ipinatong sa ibabaw ng mesa ang dalawa nitong siko. Did he find this situation alluring to watch?

"But you did not denote what changed your mind, you simply agreed to what the royal court declared."

After all, he disagrees with the matrimony ever since he knew I am born with a Duexeviz blood. He now approves because he has no choice but to obey the court?

Bakit, hindi niya ba narealize iyon noong unang beses niyang narinig sa hari na may kasalanang magaganap bago siya hirangin na bagong hari ng Zegordia?

It doesn't make any sense. Especially the part where he looked too casual while we are having this conversation.

Dapat kasi sa mga ganitong usapan, nakakunot ang noo niya o hindi kaya'y titingin siya sa akin na para akong langaw na gusto niyang patayin.

Odd and uncomfortable. Iyan ang sitwasyon ngayon.

"My intentions can be seen by action, princess."

Nagtaasan ang kilay ko sa maikli niyang sagot. "Yet, at some point, we need words to elaborate what our actions meant. Minsan, may ibang kahulugan ang bawat aksyon at may kanya-kanyang uri ng eksplanasyon ang mga tao."

"I am a particular man, and we are in a Kingdom where the people are not allowed to degrade those higher than their ranks. My actions can only be understood by royals, nobles, and the ministers from the court. Why would I bother opening my mouth for things that can be better explained by movements?"

"Mas mahalaga pa din ang salita—"

"Words are forever broken vows, actions are what fuels trust and doubt. Indeed, words can supplement the actions, but it will always remain inferior."

I would be lying if I am not feeling mad with how our conversation is going. Lucius has firm convictions that make him stand elegant and dignified among men in Zegordia.

He is known to be blunt, unbothered, and a sophist. I always find him impalpable, and whether I am wrong, I never felt that Lucius could be genuine.

"Can we go back to my question?" I said, revoking the recent heat. "At least I should know why, to defend myself if I am being asked."

"If they ask, then make your answer lined with their expectations."

Napamaang ako. "What do you mean? By saying: after months of being together, we found each other comfortable and fell in love?"