✓ | The Clandestine Memoir (Fate's Transgression Series, #1) [UNDER REVISION]

Chapter 43

~•[Chapter 43]•~

SEISHA:

Every time I think of this entire madness, I could feel thousands of knives piercing through me. An endless suffering that struck my being for becoming a selfish and obsessed individual; blinded with love and the pain of losing someone.

I could never imagine why it had to arrive at this point of time. Hindi pa talaga ako nagkaroon ng konsensya noon o ngayon lang ako naliwanagan na ang lahat ng ito ay isang malaking pagkakamali?

Or, my past life as Seisha from Earth gave me new sets of ideals that contradicts my convictions from the past. Dahil ba sa bagong yugto ng buhay ko, nagkaroon ako ng sobrang emosyon na hindi ko kayang kontrolin at umaapaw lamang ito at nalulunod ako?

This new version of me had made a lot of changes from what I was before. If what happened did not occur, I probably will commit the same mistake again.

I had woken up from the illusion despite the pain that inflicted me during the process. Setting them free requires a sacrifice for I had been a bad child from the start.

With these new emotions, I will correct the mistake that my past 6 lives had failed to realize. Hindi ko hahayaan na maulit muli ang kapighatian na idinulot ko sa mundong ito. This must end. It needs to end with me.

"Sasha..." I heard his voice while I felt his hands enveloped mine. "You look nervous. Do you want me to open the window?"

I mouthed a 'no' after I shook my head.

Hindi siya kumbinsido. We are traveling with the Berserker and a few hours from now we will arrive at the palace. Hindi namin kasama si Sebastian sa loob dahil maraming naka-station sa labas para bantayan ang biyahe.

Nasa ibang sasakyan ang ilang katulong namin at kasama si Helena. It is Lucius' way of protecting our trip since he knows that there will be threats along the way. If we will follow the timeline, may magaganap na pag-ambush nang makarating kami sa boundary ng Suin at Huin.

Magkakaroon ng patayan sa daan dahilan para hindi makadalo ang Prinsesa ng Henia sa banquet, at magiging sentro ng usapin ng mga dumalo. I know who did it, and we managed to catch the culprit when Lucius investigated the event while we were staying there.

Marami ang magaganap sa Palasyo. Pero ngayon ay hindi ako kampante dahil masyado ng nasira ang daloy nito dahil sa mga nangyayari. The danger is ahead of us, and we cannot prevent it from happening.

All we can do right now is to embrace the coming perdition. But, before it must happen, I need to hold the memoir to be able to counter it. Iyon ang dahilan kung bakit halos bumigay na ang katawan ko sa sobrang kaba.

"My love," he broke the silence, again. "Can I hear your voice? You haven't spoken anything since we left."

Perhaps my mind had been drifting away that I failed to notice I was no longer sitting on the seat of the Berserker, I am now being embraced by his strong arms as his head buried on my neck, sniffing my perfume, planting soft kisses on my bare skin.

I hate Helena for this dress I am wearing.

It is giving Lucius another naughty idea to harass my skin. Hindi na ako pumalag dahil sa bawat tribulasyon, ang ganitong eksena ang pinaka paborito nito.

I am not wearing a conservative gown like what royals always wear at formal gatherings. Rather, I am wearing a loose neckline and backless dress. The details were amazing, but it also revealed too much of my skin.

Manipis lamang na tela ang nakakapit sa neckline papunta sa likod, at mayroon itong maliliit na rosas na kulay puti para mabigyan puri ang itim na tela ng bumabalot sa akin.