Did you know you're the reason
I started smoking?
I bought my first pack of cigarettes after we had a big fight and you had blocked me.
Marlboro gold,
As it's the cigarettes you always used to smoke.
I devoted my whole life to you,
And my whole wellbeing depended on you
You helped me through the worst part of my life;
You build me up when I had no one.
You where there for me in my darkest hours
And I think you saved my life when I couldn't carry it myself.
You weren't a good person.
And we always fought.
We weren't good for each other.
And strangely I kind of miss what we had.
The most intense friendship.
But we were never soulmates;
We were toxicity in the purest form
And codependency
And I know I played my part in this.
We left apart
after you destroyed us both;
Crash and burn.
And we will never be the same.
We both moved on
Then you came back into my life
With genuine apologies & shit.
And I know you mean well,
You never wanted to hurt me intentionally;
and I didn't either.
I'm pretty sure we played major roles in our lives;
Milestones.
And from there on we both changed so much;
Became better people
But I don't know if we will ever see each other again
Or if we should.
I'm forever grateful for the times we've spent.
The evenings I stayed at your place
Both of us sitting on the floor
Till the trains started driving again at 5 am.
I've always been loving you from a distance
And deep down I still love and care for you deeply
- But we're going nowhere.
And maybe it's time to finally let you go.
I'm proud of the person you've become
And I know you do the same with me.
I will always think of you fondly
And I hope the universe treats you well.
Goodbye, Leo. It's time//
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Memoires of an everchanging spirit
Poetry„Memoir" (french: memory) //unfortunately, I can't turn off the swirling thoughts and memories in my head, but at the same time there is so much I never want to forget this is my life and I want to remember how I felt during these crucial moments w...
