[04.04.23]
I'm gone
I've lost myself
And my ashes are burning up in flames
I didn't think I could ever sink this low but I still did; here I am
There is no going back to anything BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING FUCKING LEFT
NOTHING MATTERS SO I MIGHT ASWELL COMPLETELY RESTART MY LIFE,
DEATH AND REBIRTH
I MEAN I ALREADY DIED ANYWAYS -
EVERYTHING ALWAYS CHANGES AND I WILL NEVER BE FREE IF I KEEP CLINGING TO THE PAST
I'M THE FUCKING EVERCHANGING SPIRIT,
DID I FORGET?
There's nothing but emptiness inside of me but somehow this little stubborn flame in my heart doesn't die out
I will make it out of this shithole,
Whatever it takes to get there
Life is an arrangement of shitty events and obstacles but somehow the sun still shines and warms my broken bones
And there's still music that keeps my burning heart alive//
I might aswell start living as if I had nothing to lose
I mean if life's meaningless I might aswell make the best fucking masterpiece ever out of it until I die, right?
I won't give up till I haven't seen the sun on the other side of this darkness,
I can't
I'm too stubborn to end it all;
I refuse to keep sinking lower
I can't do this to myself,
I couldn't forgive myself if I gave up
I can't let this flame inside of me die
YOU ARE READING
Memoires of an everchanging spirit
Poetry„Memoir" (french: memory) //unfortunately, I can't turn off the swirling thoughts and memories in my head, but at the same time there is so much I never want to forget this is my life and I want to remember how I felt during these crucial moments w...
