imagines shit (Sebastian's version)

B.B || youre losing me

Okay so everyone who doesn't know Taylor Swift released a new song called You're Losing Me and it's about how her ex boyfriend during the close end to their relationship ignored her and took her for granted.

So basically that's what Bucky is doing just more depressing and then we see his POV

Word count: 1003

Y/n's:

How can you love someone you can't tell us dying?

Bucky and I had been together for 6 years. I loved him. He loved me. I know it. But he doesn't anymore.

I think.

I've been wondering what he really thinks of me lately. We've been having fights all the time now.

He says "I don't understand" and I answer with "I know you don't"

We thought that something will cure us but now I fear that nothing can help us.

I'm right now looking at our house and remembering the first time we saw it.

"Okay so let's start with the tour" Amanda says. I smile and hold Bucky's hand. I can't believe that we're finally  moving in together.

The house is so beautiful. It's full of colours. The floor is white but everything is colourful. I look at Bucky and I see that he's adoring this house.

"Do you want it?" I whisper to him. "Yes I don't even care about the rooms I want it. Can we get it?" He says like a little kid.

I giggle. "We'll take it" I say to Amanda. "Wow so fast? I didn't even tell you about the rooms, the history-"
"Don't worry, Amanda, we love it"

Now I sit in the dark and wonder if it's time to finally let go.

"Hey, Y/n" Bucky finally comes home. "Hey, babe" I'm the only one in this relationship that still uses pet names.

It's the only thing making me feel like we're in a relationship and not just two strangers living in the same house and sharing the same bed.

He kisses me on the head "I have a party tonight" he says. Maybe we are worth another shot? "Can I come?" I ask.

He doesn't answer for a second and he looks a bit stunned? "Sure, yeah. It's in a hour"

I start getting ready.

<>

We've been in this party for at least a whole hour and he hasn't acknowledged me yet.

It's not even a dancing party it's just his old friend's birthday party. It's just music and chatting.

Yet my own boyfriend hasn't chatted with me.

I go to him as soon as I see him finishing a conversation with someone. "Hey, I was thinking maybe you could introduce to some of these fellas? I haven't met some of them yet" because after our 4 years anniversary he stopped going with me to any places.

"I don't know it'll be a little complicated like 'where did you hide this chick' and stuff. They aren't that important. Mostly Tony's friends" right. The avengers he only lets me meet up with once a year on his birthday.

My face is grey but Bucky doesn't admit that we're sick.

the air is thick with loss and indecision.
I know my pain is such an imposition.

One day Bucky will notice that he's losing me, and maybe that day will be too far and too late.

My heart doesn't start anymore for him.

I get that now.

<>

Bucky never proposed to me.

6 years and we're only together as a couple but not as a married one.

I want kids. Family. A house with a picket fence and red front door. I want a dog and maybe even a bunny.

But all Bucky wants is to stay together.

I used to convince myself that I want that too. That if I have him that's all I need no matter what label we have on us.

But that's not true. Every say I question myself looking at mirror "am I not enough?"

"Hey what did you want to talk about? I have like 30 minutes because Steve and I are going clubbing"

I sigh and pet the place next to me on the sofa.

"I want to break up, Bucky" he's shocked. "What? Why?"

"You've been ignoring me for the past two years. I've been trying and trying but I just can't anymore. A relationship is supposed to be two sided. Communication has to be two sided! I can't do that alone"

All I did was to be as I tried to be the bravest girlfriend for him.

"I only fought in your army, and everywhere we went you ignored me" he garbs my hands and his eyes start to water.

"Please don't do that" I shake my head. "I waited for you for six years Bucky. I can't wait anymore. You lost me" I stand up and he does the same right after me.

"Stop! Stop! no wait I'll fix it. Is this because I didn't propose. I'm just not ready you can't push it on me"

"I wouldn't marry me either Bucky. I'm just a pathological people pleaser. I just wanted you to see me. But you stopped doing that. You stopped trying. So I'm stopping too"

And I walk out. I'm going to take my things in a  week. Ill  probably even send a few of my friends.

It hurts me to admit but I begged him to say something, to risk something, to fight for us to survive the Great War with me, but now my heart won't beat for him.

I don't think I'm beating for anyone.

But one day I will. And I hope that he will too.

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Bucky's pov:

Fuck. How could I let this happen?

I didn't mean to push her away I was just tired. I was the perfect boyfriend at first and then I got sloppy.

I didn't think that she noticed. I didn't think that she cared.

She called me Baby and Honey and Love.

I don't know what I'm going to do without her in my life.