Watch N' Learn 2

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

Alyssa

I heard my mom in her room screaming so I hurried and ran in there.

"Mommy! What's wrong?" I yelled.

"I need to get to the hospital now, I think I'm losing the baby." She said.

"Okay, I'll drive. Come on." I said helping her as I grabbed a few things then we rushed to the car.

"I knew this was going to happen, I don't know why I got my hopes up."  She cried as I drove towards the hospital.

"Mommy stop. It doesn't even look like as much blood as it usually is. You know some women bleed during pregnancy. You don't have a lot of blood." I said trying to calm her down.

"I felt it Alyssa, I felt the pain."

I don't say anything else as we pull up to the emergency room and I park then get out to help her. I scream out for anyone around to help and the nurses Coke rushing out.

"Please don't let my mom lose the baby." I begged.

"Alyssa!" She screamed.

"Mommy! I'm here!" I yelled back as the other nurses pushed me away so they could take my mom back.

"It's going to be okay mommy." I mumbled as a single tear rolled down my cheek.

My phone started ringing and I saw my dad flash across the scream.

"Hey dad." I said answering.

"Where is your mom? Is she okay?" He questioned.

"I don't know, I'm scared. I don't know what to do. I can't help mommy." I told him.

"Shit...calm down Alyssa. Don't cry, just be strong for your mom and I'll see what I can do. I'm gonna call you back. I love you."

"I love you too dad." I said hanging up.

*

I waited in the lobby for what felt like forever but it was probably only an hour and a half at the most. I watched as the nurse pushed my mom in a wheelchair towards me. She had a blank expression on her face.

"What happened?" I asked.

"I'm sorry to say this but she lost the baby again." The nurse said softly.

My heart dropped and tears instantly filled my eyes.

"I'm sorry mommy! I'm so sorry." I said wrapping my arms around her tightly.

"Take me home Alyssa, I'm tired and I want to sleep." My mom finally said.

"Okay." I said.

The ride home was complete silence. My mom didn't drop one tear, she still had that blank expression on her face though.

"Mommy do you need anything?" I asked as we entered the house.

"No, thank you. I'm going to bed." She said heading up the stairs.

I sat down on the couch and placed my knees to my chest and just tried to calm down. It's happened again.

The doorbell rang and I got up to go open the door. I look through the peephole to see Ryan and opened the door fast.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I know you need somebody right now, I just wanna make you feel better." Ryan said pulling me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around him.

"You're the best." I said locking the door as we went over to the couch and cuddled. I even let tears fall, I just want my mom to be able to have another baby.

I pray that God helps our family especially my mom.

Zoey

I lay in the bed and just stared at the walls. I don't know why God cursed me with this.

"Babe...I'm here."

I turn to see Ezra and I run over and jump in his arms. I started crying instantly as he held on to me.

"It's gonna be okay baby, it's just not meant to be." He said to me.

"It's not fair."

"I know baby, God don't make mistakes. It just wasn't meant to be. We need to just give up. I'm not going to think of you any less because you gave me Alyssa. I hate seeing you like this." Ezra said to me as he raised my chin to look him in the eyes. I just couldn't stop the tears.

"I've been through this so much I shouldn't even be crying. I don't know why I even got my hopes up."

"I love you babe, we gonna be alright. Just put it in God's hands and he'll take care of it. You're strong."

I sighed. "Why are you here? You're supposed to be on your way to New York."

"My family is before all that shit, my baby had an emergency and I needed to be with her...so here I am. Plus I missed sleeping next to you. I be up all night when I'm not next to you."

"You should go baby, I'll be fine. This is nothing new." I said putting my head down.

I don't want him to know that this is bothering me because he has to work. I'll be fine.

"I'll catch a flight in the morning, you need me right now and I need you. Have you eaten anything?"

"I'm not hungry, I just want to go to sleep."

"You sure babe?"

"Yes."

He closed the door to our room then grabbed my hands and lead me to the bed.

"Come on, let's get some rest baby."

I pulled off all of my clothes except for my underwear and put on one of his crisp white t-shirts then turned the light off before climbing into bed with him. He pulled me to his naked chest and wrapped his arms tightly around me.

Tears started streaming down my face and everything started to hit me all at once. This just isn't fair to me, what did I do so wrong?

"Stop crying babe, it'll get better. I promise." Ezra said wiping my tears.

"No, it's not. I'm not able to have kids anymore. That's one of the best things that a woman looks forward to in her life and I can't even carry one to full term."

"Babe stop this. I promise you things will get better. Just trust me."

I sighed. "Okay..."

"I love you so much Zoey, you're my world. I can't stand to see you like this baby. This shit hurts me. I just want to make you happy. I want you to stop all of this crying and let's thank God for what he has already blessed us with. If it's in his plan, you'll have another one. Trust and believe in Him. It's only so much I can do so that's why I say put it in God's hands."

I wrap my arms around him tightly and just closed my eyes. I've been through so much shit from getting raped to not even being able to have a baby. I don't want to be strong anymore. I'm tired.

"I love you baby." I said.

"I love you more babe." Ezra said kissing my lips.

He's my backbone, I can't explain how much I love him. I just laid in his arms and cried myself to sleep.

Life is full of pain.