Watch N' Learn 2

Chapter 42

Chapter 42

Zoey

It's been nearly two weeks since I had baby Eli and I'm just past exhausted. I haven't told anyone because I feel like I'll be complaining when I'm the one who wanted this so bad. I love my little boy but I'm just doing it all by myself because Ezra's busy with work. Alyssa helps when she can but I haven't said anything.

Our friends have come and visited a lot which is cool and I appreciate the love.

"What time will you be home tonight?" I asked Ezra as I sat a plate of breakfast in front of him.

"I don't know, I got some stuff to do." Ezra said.

Baby Eli started crying through the monitor I had downstairs with me. It's time for him to eat.

"Can you try to get home kinda early?" I asked.

"I don't know Zoe."

"Okay." I said heading upstairs to the baby's room.

He was just crying his eyes out. I smiled then picked him up and went back downstairs to feed him. I've been breastfeeding so I just need to warm some up. I rocked him in my arms trying to calm him down as I poured the milk in a bottle then put it in the microwave.

"Shh...mommy's got you little boy." I said glancing at him.

I took the bottle out then tested it on my wrist to make sure it wasn't too cold or too hot. It was okay so I sat down at the table and began feeding him.

He totally calmed down and closed his eyes as he sucked on the bottle.

"I'm about to get out of here. I'll be back later tonight." Ezra said standing.

"What's later babe?" I asked.

"I'll call you and let you know." He said kissing my forehead and then heading out.

I sighed and watched as he left. Baby Eli finished his bottle and I put him over my shoulder to burp him. He's greedy.

I need to clean the house up after I lay him back down to sleep then try to relax. I love him so much, he's so adorable and looks just like E. I don't rock him to sleep, usually just lay him down because I don't want him to get spoiled.

I don't think I'm gonna be able to make dinner tonight. I got up from the kitchen table then went upstairs to Baby Eli's room and laid him down in the crib. He had cameras around his entire room so we could watch him anytime, anywhere. He went to sleep with no hesitation and I left out.

I began on the laundry in our room because I knew I wasn't gonna have much longer before he woke up again hungry. Maybe I need a nanny.

I laughed out loud at that thought then dumped Ezra's jeans in the washer. A gold wrapper fell out and I picked it up. It was a condom package and it was empty.

I sighed then looked around. It's always something. I left the laundry room and went back to our room and sat on the bed. I went to the nightstand and grabbed the box of condoms and noticed several were missing. We haven't had sex in a while but the last few times we did, he didn't use a condom.

I just became so frustrated that I threw it back in the drawer and closed it. I don't wanna go through this again.

I went to the kitchen and began cleaning up in there. I just wanted to do anything but think about that.