this is everything i didn't say

seventy-one

google says i'm crazy
says i'm depressed,
says i'm anxious,
says do you need to call a hotline?

google says i'm showing signs of multiple disorders
says i'm unstable
says i should talk to someone
says showing results for: you need help

google says i'm in a bad situation
says i'm lonely
says i need to let go
says just because you don't want to kill yourself doesn't mean you've never wanted to die

google says it's all a side affect of depression
says i show signs of an eating disorder
says i'm doing this for control- or is it attention?
says here are alternative methods to coping instead of self harm; god knows you need them

google says my search history is concerning
says i read too much depressing poetry
says i search for too many quotes and lyrics to sad songs
says stop searching for answers when you already know what's wrong with you

google says showing results for: are you sure you don't need to call a hotline?

google says//k.