LOOK, I'M NOT LIKE YOU, OKAY? I GET IT. I'M NOT. YOU HAVE FRIENDS AND STUFF AND PEOPLE LIKE YOU 'CAUSE YOU'RE PRETTY AND I GET THAT YOU'VE JUST GOT SOMETHING I DON'T. I'M TRYING TOO HARD AND HOPING I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT SEES IT BUT I'M PROBABLY NOT AND GOD KNOWS I'VE WRITTEN THIS SAME POEM TWENTY TIMES BUT I ALWAYS COME BACK TO IT. YOU'RE BETTER THAN ME, OKAY? THERE, I'VE ADMITTED IT, BUT IT WAS NEVER A SECRET ANYWAY SO I DON'T KNOW WHO I'M KIDDING. MAYBE IF I WORE CROP TOPS AND CLOTHES THAT WERE MORE GIRLY AND LESS BLACK, OR MAYBE IF I GREW MY HAIR OUT OR CURLED IT OR SOMETHING OR JUST CHOPPED IT SHORT, OR MAYBE IF I CONTOURED MY FACE AND FILLED IN MY EYEBROWS AND BOUGHT THE RIGHT MAKEUP, OR MAYBE IF I WAS COMFORTABLE IN DRESSES AND SHOPPED WHERE ALL THE POPULAR GIRLS DO, MAYBE I'D BE GOOD ENOUGH. MAYBE IF I STOPPED CARING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAID AND GOT A FANCY CAMERA AND SOME FRIENDS AND WENT OUT AND DID STUFF AND CHANGED MY INSTAGRAM AESTHETIC I'D BE GOOD ENOUGH. MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE I'M NEVER GONNA DO ANY OF THESE THINGS SO I'M NEVER GOING TO BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU. SEE PEOPLE LIKE YOU THINK PEOPLE LIKE ME HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT. THAT WE'RE CONFIDENT AND DON'T SECOND GUESS OURSELVES BECAUSE OUR STYLE IS BOLD OR DIFFERENT OR WHATEVER SO OBVIOUSLY WE'RE COMFORTABLE IN OUR OWN SKIN BUT YOU'RE WRONG. I AM THINKING TWICE EVERY TIME I LOOK IN A MIRROR AND YEAH BEING DIFFERENT IS COOL BUT I'D KILL TO BE YOU AND REALLY FEEL LIKE ME
DIFFERENT // K.
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this is everything i didn't say
Poetryand then there was one //if you know me, please ask before reading this, it's very personal
