Tower Over Me (Waycest)

Chapter 48: Secrets and Walls

Gerard's POV

As I press my lips against Frank's images of Mikey flash behind my closed eyes. I feel guilt rising in my stomach, but I also feel my heart racing with adrenaline and desire. I should pull away, but I don't want to, and I don't think I can. If I pull away, me and Frank will awkwardly sleep and I'll leave in the morning to be out of his life for the next four months.

I trail my hands along his chest and abdomen, his fingertips rest at my lower back, he pulls my hips forward to create friction between our lower halves causing me to moan and break the kiss. 

I pull on the hem of his shirt while looking up at his nervous eyes. "Gerard, I know I started this but.. I d-don't think I can." He states and I bite my lip. This is what I did to Mikey earlier, but I stopped with Mikey because I was afraid of hurting him, what is Frank afraid of?

"I respect that," I state moving away from him and sitting on the opposite side of the bed, straightening out my clothes and hair as Frank sits up and leans back against the headboard with a tired face. "But what exactly are you afraid of?" I ask casually but Frank's expression drops the minute I ask.

He looks down at his hands, "I just...it took a lot to get through the first night without you, and I-I'm still not over you. I know you're truthfully o-over me though, I don't wan't to..elevate my feelings for you only to walk away from you in a few days." He states, his voice shaking and his eyes filling with tears. 

I feel like a terrible person. He was right, I am here purely because Mikey's in the hospital, if not for that, I'd be at home falling in love with someone completely opposite of Frank and he knows that. "Then don't leave," I say without thinking and Frank looks up at me. 

"What? Are you kidding me?" He starts to laugh quietly and I tense up a bit, looking around the room nervously. "I'm not going to sit here, a-and rot, I can't stand on the sidelines and be what? Your rebound? No, I have a life Gerard, and I refuse to let you ruin it with your fucking games." I bow my head as tears spring to my eyes. 

Mikey's POV

I follow Dr.Pearson over to the circle of people. I scan over them, there's a small girl with black hair and blue eyes who looks at the floor distantly, she looks to be only fourteen or so. There's a blonde male looking at me curiously, he looks a bit older than me, he doesn't look too thin, but I can see his collar bones very distinctly.

There's also a girl with red hair sitting next to him, I assume she has to be the eighty seven pound patient Mrs.King mentioned, she looks horrible. Her eyes are almost sunk in, and she looks at me with a tired gaze, she has a tube coming from her nose. 

There's one more female sitting next to an empty chair, she's wearing a winter hat, but there's no hair coming from beneath it and by the way her mouth is, I can tell she's missing a few teeth.

Dr.Pearson motions me to the empty chair next to her and then stands in the center of the circle of chairs. "We have a new member today everyone, he was just admitted while we were getting our medications. Please introduce yourself mystery kid," He says looking at me expectantly.

I nervously press my nails into the skin of my palm, "I-I'm Mikey," I state unsure of what else I was meant to say. "I'm 18, u-uh anorexia." I state shakily and some of the people gaze at me curiously. "Where are you from Mikey?" The young girl with the sad eyes asks me.

"Belleville," I state and she nods. "My mother lives in Belleville." Dr.Pearson smiles at me. "We welcome you, I'm going to allow the others to introduce themselves, we'll start with Lizzy." He says motioning to the girl beside me with the tube.

She clears her throat, "I'm Lynz, I'm seventeen, I'm from Greenville, anorexia." She looks down when she names her illness. I notice that whenever an illness is mentioned everyone looks a bit uncomfortable. Shouldn't that be the main thing we talk about here?

The redhead next to Lizzy smiles at me, "I'm Haley, I'm nineteen, I'm also from Greenville, bulimia." I nod my head, looking to the blonde kid next to her. "M-my names Caleb, I have EDNOS." He doesn't offer an age or location like the others had, and that makes Dr.Pearson scribble something down on his notepad.

Then the youngest looking female with dark hair looks over at me with a weak smile. "Brooklyn, I-I'm fifteen, I kind of...live in Belleville and Essex. Anorexia and bulimia." She murmurs and Dr.Pearson smiles.

"Great, now that we're all familiar, how does everyone feel about Mikey joining us?" I feel like I'm in a cult, at the other places I had been sent they weighed me, locked me in a room, forced me to eat at meal times, and asked me the same questions every day.

Brooklyn sighs and gives me a once over that makes me feel uneasy.  "I'm happy that he's here, b-but I hope he gets out soon." Her statement is vacant and her sad eyes trail away from me.

Caleb smiles at me, "I'm happy you're here because now I'm not the only dude." The girls scoff and Haley nudges him in the side which causes me to smirk.

Haley looks over at me, "It can get pretty boring, I'm happy to see a new face."  

It's Lynz's turn to speak but she looks very uncomfortable. "Lynz," Dr.Pearson encourages and she looks up at him sheepishly.  "I want Mikey to leave." I feel a bit offended but I try not to let it show. "Lynz has been in section A for over a year," Dr.Pearson states to excuse her words.

I look over at Lynz, she bites her lip and gazes at the floor.