Loving You Painfully - Michaeng (Completed)

Chapter 25 - To Love Again

Being a girlfriend of Samuel is the joy-est thing that could ever happen in my life right now. Even though I seem so ignorant, I made sure that he also knows it. Know that I care. I can't even say the word love yet to him. The way he's being so understanding towards my feelings somehow kills me. He didn't want to rush me. I like him for sure, I am so sure because he made my heart beating so fast while he's around me, especially when he kissed me. I felt like the whole world stopped.

I started with little things such as replying his text as soon as possible, asking about his day, even make a facetime with him, sometimes I sent him food as well, he's so skinny I want him to have a healthy lifestyle. You could ask my ex-boyfriend, Minki. I will never do something like that in the past. Cause I am indeed so ignorant. Not only to my friends, even to my parents. Yet I always remind him to call his parents often. He's right, I should at least try. He's the one who could finally make me trying something like this.

Him being so nice to me somehow makes me feel insecure as well. What kind of man who wants a relationship with a girl like me? That thought always consumes me. I'm scared that someday Samuel demand for something from me, something that probably I could ever give. I'm afraid that he will run out his nice tokens to me. I guess, I always live like this. Too afraid of the future, yet always make a prediction towards it. Now that I kind of depend on him, when he perhaps, run away from me in the future, perhaps I couldn't survive.

Ah love.........it's a very complicated word since the last time I used it for her. Thank God that I could finally share things like this with Tzuyu even more. Tzuyu is now in a relationship with Mingyu Oppa. Finally. After over than a year they were just texting each other, they finally meet and confessed each other out. I could totally see that Tzuyu is crazy about him. I can tell that so many actors, singers, entertainers ask Tzuyu out, but she only fixed her eyes toward Mingyu Oppa.

"Sammy~~~Are you free Sunday Night?"

"Yes, why?"

"Tzuyu invite us to double date"

"Tzuyu got a boyfriend? I'm shocked"

"Yes, recently"

I don't want to give him the name just yet. He will shock. I will get that precious expression the Sunday then.

"Okay, I'm free"

"I'll pick you at 7pm then"

"Okay! See you, my love!"

"See yaaaa!" I reply him.

It had become a habit that I always pick him and drop him off for a date since he doesn't have a driving license yet. I feel fine tho. Tzuyu then texts me.

"Chaeng!, Sunday Night, okay?"

"Okay, I already told Sam, he could come. Don't tell Oppa yet about Sam, okay?"

"Okay! By the way, have you checked this?"

Tzuyu send me a link to an article. I open the URL.

[Kim Samuel on Ideal Type and PRISTIN'S Kyulkyung as his Ideal girlfriend]

"He's so good at keeping a secret, isn't he?" Tzuyu text again.

I read this article. Yes, I do mention to him to not to be specific about his ideal type. But in this article, he mentions completely opposite from me. I laugh bitterly and a little bit mad. This kid, If I meet him on Sunday, he will be a dead meat.

Because of this article, I become a bit cold to him. Do I turn to a crazy girlfriend who's jealous over things like this? No, I am not, I am not jealous a bit. I text him that I am nearby. I already move to passenger seat cause I know he wants to drive. I become quite for a whole ride. I feel a little bit madder moreover after reading netizen's comment over his ideal type. It does bother me, he hasn't said anything about this tho.