(A/N: THIS CHAPTER HAS THE LYRICS TO AMNESIA BY FIVE SECONDS OF SUMMER BECAUSE IT JUST REMINDS ME OF HOW HUNTER IS FEELING AND IT MAKES ME CRY. And this chapter is kind of... Different. But if your a 5sos fan then okay :D)
Hunter's POV-
Later that day, I went everywhere me and Mallory went together. When we were at the park and her blonde hair was flowing when she was on the swing. When she got ice cream on her nose, and I kissed it off of her, making her blush. The night of the crawfish festival when I sang 'Wanted' to her, the song I had wrote for her before we were even together.
I drove by all the places we use to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss
How it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me your doing fine
I saw her and Aaron together, again. I try to get my mind off of her, knowing that she's with him, Hoping and praying maybe one day, they'll be a miracle that will bring us back together. But every time I see them together, I start doubting it.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, even though he's right beside you
When he says those words that hurt you do you read the ones I wrote you
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine? 'Cause I'm not fine at all.
My mind goes back to when she said that she can't be with me anymore. Seeing that she wanted to be with Aaron, and how she loved Aaron instead, it made me never want to love again. And still now, I never want to love again, unless Mallory chooses to be with me again.
I remember the day you told me you were leavin'
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could go back, keep her from leaving, and just forget about everything that happened that day. The worst day of my life. Right there in her living room, my heart was broken and the pieces were lying on the floor.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, and forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I pull out my phone, and watch all the videos of her that are on my phone. All the selfies she took when she got my phone from me. The selfies of me and her together and the letters that she left in the notes on my phone. Some of the make me smile, and some of them just make me break down and for me to make her love me again, even though I can't.
The pictures that you sent me, they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them
I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why your not around
Now, it's been half a year since I've seen Mallory in person. When I check twitter, I see the pictures she posts of her and Aaron together, and it doesn't help me get over her. I haven't gotten over her at all. I don't think that I will either. Before I left to go back to Tennessee, Raelynn had asked me to be her boyfriend, and I answered saying, "Not in a million years." Then seeing Mallory and Aaron made me wish it was Mallory that asked me to be her boyfriend, and me saying yes and everything would be the way it should be. But yet, she's happy with Aaron.
It hurts to know your happy, yeah it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name, When I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine? 'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leavin'
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, and forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
They've been together for eight months now. The worst eight months of my life. I keep being told that she'll come back. But nothing's happened in eight months and I don't think they will. Everyday, I hope that I'm dreaming and that I'll wake up, and she'll still love me and still want to be with me. Then we'd be together forever and no one or anything could change that.
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I would hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away, and you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leavin'
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, and forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all
