If You Only Knew... [completed]

forty-one

 Hey,

 Today, we had a meeting with you and Nicole. She was really a sucker for you, she was following you everywhere, she was to close to you, you seemed uncomftable, I don't know why. I was uncomftable too, seeing her that close to you made my throat knotted, tears were threating to fall. I was pathetic, I hated it. I didn't say a word, I avoided your gaze cause I knew that if I looked at you in the eyes I would've cried! You make me feel so weak! You have so much control over me.

  After the meeting, Jimy proposed that we eat together, him, you, Nicole and I, I declined, I saw enough for today!

 As I'm writing, my tears are falling and I can hardly see clearly! 

 We're going to Italy in two days, now that you feel better we can go there and fix the project once and for all.

  Only you and I are going, if someone told me few days ago that I'll go on trip with you and only you, I would've been the happiest girl in the world, just like I was the first time we were about to go. This time, I don't want to go, I don't want to see you, you hurt me so much, I can't stand it, but I have to go. It's for work, I hope that this time it'll be fine.