If You Only Knew... [completed]

Forty-six

 Hey,

  Right now, while I'm writing this letter, you're in front of my door, knocking ans saying my name begging me to open the door. 

  I won't, or at least, not now. Oh if you only knew how I'm refraining myself from not opening the door! But I have to, I feel like you're playing with me. I thought that after what happend back there, we'll be ok and be together. Guess I was wrong again!!

  Did you notice? these days I am always wrong about you!!

 You stoped knocking, thank god, I couldn't feel my ears anymore!

  You're talking to me, let me write your words," please open, I'm sorry, I didn't kiss her, she did, please, believe me! You know me, I'm not really good at expressing feelings, I'm very bad at this game. But... I..You deserve to know the truth! Open the door, please Lia!"

  I hate to see you like that but you hurted me but hearing you saying my name makes me happy, I love to hear you say my name! sould I open the door?

 Of course not! But I'll do it and I hate myself for being so weak around you.