Fate

Chapter Fifty

Chapter Fifty

"No, I don't remember," Liam insisted.

He'd told me this before and I believed him and I still did. There was no doubt in my mind Lima wouldn't tell me the truth. I knew he would it was rather I hoped maybe he just couldn't remember much like me. Why was it neither of us could remember anything?

"Alright," I accepted.

"What brought this on?" he questioned sticking a tater tot into his mouth.

I probably knew better than to bring this conversation up at lunch but I couldn't help myself.

"No reason."

"What did he say this time?"

"Not anything really it's just I know I don't remember and neither do you. That's so weird."

"You ever think he's lying about it? He's lied about a lot of stuff after hasn't he?"

"We know he's telling the truth about some things. Our moms wouldn't lie," I insisted.

"I know they wouldn't. That's not what I'm saying either."

"Then what are you saying?"

"What are you saying?"

"Nothing it just frustrates me neither of us remember something we should."

"Maybe we don't remember because it's something we shouldn't remember. Especially if it's about knowing him," he grumbled."

"It's still a part of our past. It bothers me I can't remember something from my past. It's a part of us isn't it?"

"Or maybe the past isn't something we should see as all that important. Maybe we should be focusing on the here and now. My past just meant me thinking about my douche bag sperm donor who left my mom all along to raise me without providing any kind of support whatsoever. Right now? I am dating the most beautiful girl that ever walked the earth," he smiled taking Maggie's hand.

Perhaps he was right but I still wanted to know why I didn't remember. Why he couldn't remember. I wanted to know about my past even if it wasn't always the best thing to look back on. Miles had been a part of my past as well as Zayn. I didn't feel you could appreciate the present or look toward the future without thinking of the past. Thats just how I thought about things.

"Liam your too sweet but I agree with Ariel. Our past is important. We shouldn't forget key parts," she explained playing with one of her bracelets.

"Yeah sure but something tells me those key parts just involve Zayn. That's not exactly a good thing."

"I'm not trying to go look for an excuse to marry the guy I just want to know," I defended.

"I get it gummy bear and I'm trying to be supportive of that but come on. He just isn't a good guy to be associating yourself with for too long. He's proven he can't be trusted just like someone else we know. I'm sorry but you sure know how to pick them."

"I know. Believe me, I'm sorry I don't mean to pick guys like this. I don't know why I do that and I don't know why I can't just forget about them. I'm really not looking for a boyfriend when I've got one and things are already so iffy between us as it is. Or rather neither of us can end it."

"She can't help how she feels you know. She's smart and she knows the type of guy she should be going for but that's not who she feels a pull toward," Maggie said knowingly.

"She needs to stop feeling this pull then. It's not good and I hate guys like that," Liam said standing to his feet and taking their trays.

"He's mad at me I can' tell," I frowned as I watched him walk toward the trash can.