Fate

Chapter Ninety-Five

Chapter Ninety-Five

"What the hell?" he snapped at me so suddenly it made me jump.

I was certain he wouldn't hit me even as angry as he was right now but I couldn't help but jump. His anger was still so fresh and real that I couldn't help but step back from him a little bit. His anger was directed at me and if I hadn't already known this I could see it in his normally beautiful; eyes. He seemed to be shaking he was so angry and I couldn't force my mouth to work.

"Typical your not going to say a word," he laughed bitterly.

I had talked to him a lot recently actually.

"W-wh-what do you want me to say?" I uttered softly afraid if I said the wrong thing it would anger him more.

"Well for starters how about you admit what a hypocrite you are? Let's not even talk about the fact youve been the one so upset with me that we couldn't be friends and now your the one who decided we can't be. No, we aren't going to talk about that. Instead, let's talk about the fact you don't want to hang out but you have no problem involving yourself in my life in other ways like getting into a fight with my girlfriend in the bathroom. How about that?"

He was right that I was a hypocrite but he didn't understand. I wasn't trying to invite myself into his life or start the fight with her. My mind couldn't formulate that response to him so I settled on something else.

"She told you."

It wasn't a question but rather a comment of confirmation for myself. I wasn't surprised she'd told him as I expected she would I just didn't know how soon. I couldn't help but think she'd put her own spin on things when she told him. Right now that wasn't the important thing.

"Of course she told me. You think she wouldn't? She actually tells me things unlike you."

A dig at me for sure but maybe he was right. She could probably tell him pretty much everything without fear. I couldn't help but wonder how she dealt with his anger or mood swings unless he didn't get as angry with her and was able to control his mood with her. Maybe she somehow brought out his softer side. The only thing she hadn't been able to tell him she'd recently admitted. What happened with Miles. Was that the only secret she kept from him? Who was I to judge? Besides he truly was right. Somehow she was good for him and if so he needed her.

"She's good for you don't you see? Unlike me and that's why-

He punched the locker with such force I jumped again and now I wasn't so sure he wouldn't hit me. I stepped back bumping my head on the locker as I did so. "That's not why," he seethed.

"Yes, it is," I choked out.

"You're not helping anybody and your not the hero. It's not your job to save anybody."

"I'm not trying to-

"That includes yourself."

"What does that mean?"

"You're trying to help yourself more than you are anyone else," he accused.

"That's not true-

"You're afraid of what you feel."

"I-

You are. That's what it is. You think giving up is the easy way out right?"

"Please stop interrupting me."

"Maybe that's it or maybe you are so insecure about Melinda you did what you did."

"I didn't do anything but-