Fate

Chapter Fifty-Six

Chapter Fifty-Six

Break up with Reggie tonight?

As if it were that easy, but Zayn may have made a point. Was it really right or fair to break up with him after the party? That would ruin any good time he might have there. Could I even enjoy it beforehand? The guilt weighing down on me throughout wouldn't allow me to have fun.

The idea of us going in as single people didn't sound super bad but something told me it would still affect both of us. A breakup was still a breakup. There would still be bad feelings and heartbreak between us. We'd had something together no matter how forced it was.

If I wanted I could tell Reggie today when we were supposed to be hanging out. Sadly that hardly seemed fair after what had just done for me. Nor was it fair of me to break up with him. Maybe I'd get lucky and he'd decide to break up with me today. I could take it and I'd be okay.

By second period I was still stressing about it and what I should do. Was Zayn right? Should I decide to break up with him today or wait until after the party? I didn't know and for once I wished someone could make the decision for me. Actually, I'd probably be better of if others always made my decisions for me with the horrible job I'd been doing at that lately. I shifted in my seat and everyone at the table turned to look at me. Apparently, everyone was thinking I was behaving weirdly.

I ignored Zayn's piercing gaze and Maggie's worried look and tried to focus on my paper without glaring at them. They should realize how weird I was by this point. Maybe Melinda wasn't exactly wrong with all the things she and her friends said about me on a daily basis.

"Ms. Young, are you paying attention?" Mrs. Hollowell asked.

"Yes," I replied simply though it was a lie.

Math was the furthest thing from my mind right now. I was too worried about the impending doom of my relationship with Reggie. He was too sweet and he didn't deserve any of this. The fact he'd stood up for me this morning made my decision even harder to accept. I didn't want to do this but I had to.

I didn't love him like I should. I loved him, yes, but only as far as I could a friend. It wasn't fair to either of us and I knew that but I couldn't change how I felt. I already loved two people and I didn't think my heart could hold any more emotion for someone else. Not like it did Miles and Zayn.

Ultimately, my decision to break up with him didn't fix my love for either of them as they were happily in a relationship with someone else and I didn't expect or want them to break up with them on my account. They deserve to be happy with whoever they chose and it wasn't my place to stand in the middle of their happiness.

"I love Lita but she's not you, Gem."

Why did my mind choose now to do this? Why did I always have to torture myself?

"Gummy bear?"

I snapped back to reality when I heard Liam's concerned voice beside me. I turned to see him frowning at me. "What is it?" I asked softly, letting out a tired sigh.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

I glanced around the table and both Maggie and Zayn were staring at us, apparently awaiting my answer. Looking back at Liam, I nodded. "Fine. Just tired." I shrugging.

He arched an eyebrow, shocking me by turning to Zayn. "You buying that?" He asked and my mouth dropped.

Zayn shook his head. "Not a bit. She did have a fight with Mr. Gray earlier though." He shrugged.

"She's also worried about breaking up with Reggie." Maggie piped in and I snapped my attention to her, glaring at her.

"What did you and Mr. Gray fight about?" Liam questioned me.