We Are Titanium

Where He Gets to Go Home

****Where He Gets to Go Home****  
*Jesse's P.O.V.*

I love you? I love you? Did she really say I love you?

We are supposed to be broken up and completely over each other. Why is she saying that? Maybe she is just very tired and it slipped out without her thinking. Yeah, maybe that's it. That definitely has to be it. But why can't I get it out of my head? Why can't I stop thinking about those words escaping her lips? Why does it make my heart pitter patter? Why does it make me as giddy as a school boy virgin?

After those questions, a whole new set of questions flowed through my head.

Why am I laying with her? Why am I snuggling against her? Why am I burying my face in her neck? Why am I sniffing the beautiful curls that are lazily splayed across her shoulders? Why is my hand tightening around her fingers? Why is my other hand rubbing her stomach? Why am I enjoying this so much? But the most important question is, am I still in love with Beca?

Could I, Jesse Alexander Swanson, still be absolutely smitten by one effortlessly gorgeous and extraordinarily talented Rebeca Genevieve Mitchell?

I take one more lingering glance at her sleeping face and the answer to all of my questions hits me.

Yes.

Yes I can be absolutely smitten by her. Yes I am still in love with her. There's just one more question I have to deal with now.

What about Maddy?

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"Jesse? Jesse?" I woke up the next morning, Beca still tangled in my arms. "Dude, what are you doing?"

"Benji?"

"Yeah, it's me and you're d*mn lucky it's not Maddy or Derek."

"Why? What happened?" I asked, still half asleep. "Are you kidding me? You're spooning with your ex f*cking fiance. Dude, do you know how angry those two have been?" I just shook my head. "You and Beca haven't separated all night. They're pretty p*ssed. If they were to see you like this, they'd kill you both. Now get up before they see you."

I groaned but slowly removed my arms from around Beca. She stirred a little but didn't wake up. "So, what are you doing here?"

"Um, Chloe is my friend, too."

"No I know that. I mean why are you here right now? Everyone else is at the hospital."

"Yeah, I was sent to get you. The doctors need a parent or guardian and we thought that Beca could use the sleep so I'm getting you." I rubbed my face and slowly climbed out of the bed. "I'm coming." he stood there and watched me. "You can leave now so I can get ready."

"Hurry." he monotoned then left the room.

I pulled my shoes on then sat on the edge of the bed and watched her sleep. She is so cute. I thought about leaving her a note. I scrawled a quick one onto a sticky note and placed it on her nightstand. I read over it and quickly decided against it. I plucked it up and tossed it into the wastebasket before scrawling another one. I smirked at it and stuck it to her nightstand before leaning over and kissing her forehead. I watched her for a second longer then left.

I hope she takes the note the way I implied it.

*Beca's P.O.V.*       

I woke up feeling oddly great. I felt this weird loneliness as I looked at the emptiness beside me. Wasn't Jesse with me? I'm pretty sure he was because I can still smell his cologne. I breathe in deeply and the beautiful scent of Jesse's Avatar cologne fills my airways. I smiled and rolled over onto my bed. My eyes fell upon a note laying on my nightstand and I could see words in Jesse's handwriting scrawled on it. I quickly snatched it up and my smile grew bigger as I read it.