falling [asanoya/ennotana] 🌦

Finally a chapter where asahi is Sad-

-because i Realized i've only showed noya's sadness so far (seriously, this boy has cried At Least Four Times, but asahi's only shown being Guilty, Regretful, and/or Nervous so far)

a/n: you might wanna go back to "suga shoots asahi in the neck and is only a Little Bit Sorry" around the end where suga leaves the call for a quick recap on what's happening

.azumane.

"so then he asked if i was trans, which was confusing? i mean, i know i have long hair, and maybe he was grasping at straws, but-"

suddenly, i was interrupted by a concerned looking suga.

"hang on, asahi, i... i'm getting a call from nishinoya."

i frowned and daichi quirked his eyebrow up, looking confused.

why would noya call suga? why not talk to tanaka about it? that's what he said he would do anyway.

wait a minute...

"that's weird... i wonder why he isn't calling tanaka instead... maybe you should take it, it could be serious."

"are you sure?"

"yeah, it's fine. i'll just pester daichi."

"alright, sorry. goodnight for now, guys."

we each said goodnight, then suga left the call.

"i wonder what could've happened," daichi said.

"yeah... i hope it's nothing too bad."

he smiled warmly.

"i'm sure he'll be fine. sometimes we all need some of suga's advice, right? maybe he finished talking to tanaka early and needed some more words of wisdom."

it made sense, but i was still worried.

"yeah, maybe..."

"hey, look at me, okay?"

i realized my gaze had drifted from the screen and looked back at his face. he was wearing his most kind and reassuring expressions, and though i still felt uneasy, i was immediately comforted.

"you know nishinoya will be fine no matter what. he's a resilient little guy, right?"

"i mean, i... yes. he is."

"alright, now continue your emotional unload to me so you can get your mind off things."

"okay... where was i...?"

"at the part where he asked if you were trans?"

"oh, that's right. yeah, that was really weird, and i have the biggest amount of respect for trans people, but i'm just not sure why he would think i was trans... again, he might've just been grasping at straws there. but yeah, afterwards, arghh i chickened out and just said i'd tell him Next Wednesday, i can't believe it."

"true, but hey, like you said and suga said and i said, it's good to set a specific date to hold yourself accountable. of course, telling him then would've been ideal, but it's a good alternative."

"yeah, i guess... but noya did make a good point when he said i could just pull a fast one on myself and blurt it out..."

"well, since he suggested that, it wouldn't really be a fast one, would it? because you would be expecting it and he would be expecting it."

"i guess? but i could always wait until a little later when he wasn't expecting it and say it, or i could've said it earlier, or-"

"asahi, listen. what's done is done. you can't keep overthinking this, because-"