The Crown Sinners

71: Twisted Scars Each of them Hid

Trigger Warning: PPD and Suicide (Attempt)

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#TCS71: Twisted Scars Each of them Hid

Miracle Silhouette's POV

I heaved a heavy sigh, I didn't want to bawl my eyes out at them, but thinking of what really happened before was slowly making me feel too much pain in my heart. It was like the scar that I thought that healed with time, didn't heal at all.

Nando'n pa rin 'yong pagsisisi, 'yong sakit, 'yong matinding hapdi. Hindi talaga yata ako makakawala sa mga kamay ng demonyo kahit ano'ng gawin ko, kasi ako mismo ang naging gano'n noong bata pa ako.

"After the Domain got our grandparents, we did not waste any second. We disappeared from all of you..." I closed my eyes, as I felt the hot liquid that was cutting my cheeks. It was that painful. Kung ako ang masusunod, ayaw ko nang balikan pa 'yong mga kasunod na nangyari.

Pero ano'ng magagawa ng pagtakas ko? Ano'ng magagawa ng pagtanggi ko? Gusto ko na lang tanggapin ang lahat. Kaya hanggang ngayon patuloy akong bumabawi, patuloy kong isusugal ang buhay ko para sa kanila, dahil 'yon lang ang makakaya kong gawin, para makapagbayad sa lahat ng nagawa ko.

"We... couldn't really understand why we have to run away and hide..." I glanced at Justice when he started saying those words. Luna was beside him, tapping his hand that she was holding. Tahimik lang pero kita ko 'yong sakit kay Luna.

"Pamilya tayo lahat 'di ba? Bakit kami aalis ng hindi nagsasabi? Bakit kailangan namin umalis at humiwalay sa inyo?" Nasasaktang tanong ni Justice.

I clenched my jaws, and took a deep breath to prevent tears. It wasn't just them that had a hard time when we disappeared. The triplets, too. They couldn't understand why we had to do it. They couldn't let go of the hands of our families.

Why did we even have to do it, right?

"Tandang-tanda ko no'n kung paano umiyak si Justice at Rebel... ayaw sumama kina Dada, kasi aalis kami..." Law tried to joke, but he choked, and he covered his eyes, because like Rebel and Justice, he also didn't want to leave them.

Law's the leader of the whole gang. Law was the one who was too stubborn because he didn't want to just leave. Kahit magpaalam man lang daw. Kasi... hindi na talaga namin alam kung kailan kami makakabalik.

Momo and Dada was so stressed that time... because I wasn't speaking, I wasn't really moving, I was just breathing.

Ang kwento sa akin noon, nakatulala lang ako lagi, wala sa sarili, hindi makausap, at palaging umiiyak.

The triplets couldn't even approach me back then. But I knew they were hurt, and they were also longing for me... I was always sorry to them.

"Hanggang sa... bigla na lang nagalit si Dada sa amin. Kasi... muntik nang mawala si Gabby... kasi matigas ang ulo namin." Mas hinigpitan ko ang hawak sa kapatid ko dahil sa narinig kay Justice.

He looked up, and rubbed his eyes. He grunted a little, because he couldn't stop crying. Pati sina Theon, Cleon, Pierce, Thorn, at Akira, sobrang namumula na rin ang mga mata dahil sa nakikita nila sa aming magkakapatid.

Ramdam ko 'yong hapdi sa kanila. 'Yong mga tingin nila sa amin. Punong-puno ng emosyon. Sobrang nagsisisi kasi akala nila sila lang 'yong nahirapan. Hindi nila alam, lahat kami may itinatago ring mga sugat.

"Momo bled one night, that night we all decided to disappear from all of you. Because... Momo, Dada, and Miracle needed us..." Rebel continued, Honoka hugged him, while she was sobbing with Rebel's broken voice.