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❝How do I... How do I stop them?"
"You want to stop them?" Rachel raised an eyebrow.
"Yes," I nodded.
She immediately broke out into a high-pitched laugh. "Oh Laura, you can't.❞
Every prestigious high school has this. A group...
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Look at the sky tonight, all of the stars have a reason A reason to shine, a reason like mine and I'm fallin' to pieces
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MY INITIAL reaction to this was to leave. To run away, like I always do. Book a ticket back to America, as I am still a citizen there, and just never come back. Who would miss me anyway?
And that's what I wanted to do. I wanted to leave so badly, everything had turned to shit the second I came here and although that's partly my fault, this isn't the fate I wanted. I came here to escape my problems, once again running away because I couldn't deal with the mess I'd made with Reece back in New York. But no matter how far I went, all my problems followed and just doubled in size.
I need leaving, to not be my first idea when things get hard because then I leave the burden of my problems and my absence on other people. But really, who would care? My parents would get mad, maybe disown me, but let me live in America anyway. Savien would get over me, we only met a few months ago so I shouldn't really mean that much to her. I never have to anyone else.
But I did kind of fuck up the school and randomly leaving right now would be the worst choice ever. But I couldn't stay. God, I hated everything I had going on here. I hated the school, hated most of the people inside the school, hated how I had to keep putting on an act when everything was falling apart, hated how the second I kind of got myself together again life slapped me in the face and said fuck you. I just needed to wrap things up.
Put Tao, Brandy, and Zia in their place for good and then I can leave.
But fuck, how do I do that when I can't even go back to school? I needed help, that much was for sure, but from who? Isaia kept trying to convince me I could think about this later and I should just calm down, probably because I did have a very small, short, minor breakdown in his bathroom. But I didn't have time to relax. I don't ever have time to relax.
