I don't like feeling alone

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Sasha started clearing the table, while Bayley was doing the dishes. The microwave went off and Bayley pulled out at bottle of blood for Sasha. "Thank you, how did you know I was getting hungry again." Sasha asked. "I just took a guess and I don't want you to be in pain. Should I heat up another for you?" Bayley asked. "No this is good thank you." Sasha replied. "Well your kitchen is cleaned up are you ready to take me home?" Bayley asked. "No, I don't want you to go! I want you stay here with me! Why would want to leave for? I don't want to feel alone and right now I feel I'm losing you. I'm not sure what happen tonight and you promise you would talk to me about this." Sasha said.

"I really don't want to go and I know it will kill me being away from you but maybe it's the for the best. This is really hard for me. What do you want from me? The thing I know you want from me scares me the most. Do you think I like feeling alone and not wanted! That how my life has been since I was a child. No one wanted to be friends with me, they just bullied me. I had to make up excuses to why I was gone each month. This is hard for me and I feel like all I do is make mistakes with you.

First you push me away after you feed off me and that hurt deep down. I didn't understand what was going on with you. I get you don't want me to died but losing one life for you is worth it if it makes the transformation easier for you. Second, when I seen Becky hug you I started losing control like I did in Roman office.  I had to excuse myself because my control went out the door. Than when we were seating there and she reach to touch your hand to get your attention. I could feel the beast want to attack and to calm you. It's getting harder to control the beast. Than Becky saying it was a mistake for you to say yes to me it hurt more than you know. It made me think I shouldn't have asked you so soon."Bayley tells Sasha.

  "Bayley, what I want is for you to talk to me and not to run. I was so relieved that you were sitting in the hall when I went looking for you. I never want you to feel alone because I don't want to be alone either. Since I was turned I felt I would never find anyone and than you came along. I enjoy being with you and when I'm not around you, I'm think about you nonstop. I know I hurt you this morning when I pushed you away but just like you I'm afraid to take one of your lives. To me each life you have left is important to me. I want to protect each one of them. Your blood calls to me and I want to feed off you everyday if I could but I don't want to over do it and make you weak.

I won't lie, It hurts me that you won't bite me. I feel you don't really want me as a mate and that's the reason you haven't bitten me yet. I'm happy that you asked me to marry you and I can't wait for that to happen. But honestly I want more. I want to run with you in the full moon and experience what you do. I don't want you to be alone when you shift. I love you that much to go through this with you." Sasha tells Bayley

Bayley was taken back a what Sasha just said. "Sasha I do want you as my mate but I'm scared! I don't want you to suffer and if that wrong than I'm wrong. The unknown is what bothers me the most. I just know I love you enough that I would rather suffer than see you go through that pain. I know my mom said everyone goes through it differently. But I keep asking myself why would you want to go through that pain. I know what you just said but it still puzzle me." Bayley tells Sasha

Sasha could see the hurt in Bayley eyes and it was hurting her. Sasha got up and wrapped her arms around Bayley waist. "Bayley I'm not leaving you, like I told you before I love you and I can't live without you. If all I get out of you is the imprint and marriage than I'll take it. But I will always want you to bite me. I want to experience what you do each month and I don't want you to be alone. I know you can shift back right away. But I rather join you and experience the happiness it brings you to run free. I love you so much that I would go through that pain." Sasha tells Bayley

"Bayley, I don't want you to leave but, if you still want to go back to the White House I'll take you or do you want stay here with me in are home?" Sasha asked.  Bayley looked puzzled at Sasha and asked are home? "Bayley, home is where the heart is and you have my heart. This is your home now too and I want you to stay with me. I don't want to be alone and I know you don't want to be alone either. So, please stay with me? Sasha asked again. Bayley brings Sasha in for a passionate kiss and asked if they could just cuddle. Sasha returns the kiss and replies "that would be something different and I love being in your arms."

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