This is a sequel to 'crazy story '
After a crazy roller coaster ride last year , Kennedy attempts to cope with being without someone she fell in love deeply with , while Von has to learn how to let go. Will they let the universe decide if their b...
"I wanted you bad I'm so through with that 'Cause honestly you turned out to be the Best thing I never had You turned out to be the Best thing I never had And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had"
~yonce
Kennedy banks pov Saturday 8/13
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"Okay Kennedy you got this , you look good , you smell better , your edges laid , your skin moisturized , let's do it ! " I mumble as I attempt to boost myself up in the mirror .
It's finally Saturday and I've been dreading this day to come up . I love Vons family and maw does know how to cook but I know it's going to be awkward .
As soon as the Von questions come up and the pity party starts I know I'm going to break down into tears and ruin everyone's night . Or when they talk about his children or even Asian I'm going to either blow up or burst into all types of emotions .
I hate that my anxiety is getting the best of me just like last time but at least Von was here before to calm me down . He also defended and made me feel comfortable when we arrived , but now that he's not with me .. this can turm out bad .
Then again all of this could just be in my head . Just like last year I went I was so nervous and it didn't even turn out bad . Maybe if I just turn on confident Kennedy and leave worrisome Kennedy at the house then it will be okay .
"You don't need no man to back you up girl , you got this " I smile to myself . I apply a little more lipgloss and purse my lips at my reflection. "Period girlll!"
"Do you always talk to yaself?"
I jump back hearing a voice and look over to see Clarence standing in the door way . "Clare how the hell did you get in here ?" I pant holding my chest while he laughs .
"Your mother let me in " he smiles and bends down to hug me and plants a kiss on my lips .
"Well I'm really happy to see you but I'm going to a cookout remember ?" I remind him , trying to get him out the door before he starts asking questions that I can't make up lies to .
"Yes I remember , you left ya sneakers in the car so I was just bringing em to you love " he tells me holding out the foot locker bag . I smile a little and take it from his hand
"Thank you " I nod
"Yeah have fun today Imma miss you " he smiles
"I will , and I'll miss you to , tomorrow we can hang out okay ?"I tell him then kiss him goodbye
"Cool " he grins and starts to walk out the door . "Oh Kennedy " he stops "ya moms not going ?" He ask
"Uhhhmmmm " I look to the side "nah she not feeling good " I lie
"Oh alright " he looks at my body language awkwardly then shrugs and walks off .
I wait until I hear the door shut then loook in the mirror and sigh . "Good save girl "
I finish up my appearance by adding my shoes and walk out into the living room where my mother is sitting .
"Well hello ms fast girl " she greets me and I roll my eyes .
"Don't start ms banks " I point and she laughs .
"That was a nice looking young man " she smirks
"I know right "
"Mhm " she mumbles "third one I den seen this week "
I gasp and snap my neck at her "ma ! "
"What ? " she laughs "I'm just saying "
"You calling me a hoe ? " I ask and she holds her hands up in surrender.
"No im just saying you moving kinda fast Kennedy " she says and I shake my head
"It's not even like that " I shrug . It's definitely like that .
"Well whatever it's like I don't want all these lil boys coming in and out my house " she points I chuckle a little and shake my head .
"Okay ma I hear you "I nod "I'm about to go though "
"Be in before eleven " she says . I grab my purse and begin to head out the door . "And Kennedy ?" She says I turn around and give her my full attention "chasing around all these little boys not gone help you get over Dayvon "
I pause and look at her feeling the sorrow replace the excitement in my body . "I'm over him " I mumble . She looks at me with sadness in her eyes and I look away and walk out the door to my car . I hate when she brings him up !
Everytime one person says something about him all the memories of him flood back and my emotions go completely sensitive .
It's already been a year and I keep telling myself that I'm over him , that he can just be happy with asian and I don't need him anymore , but then someone brings him up or he pops up in my dream and all my progress disappears .
He made me so happy for a long time and it's hard for me to just up and forget him like nothing ever happened . I expierenced so much with him and now I feel like I'm in an endless cycle of flashbacks from our relationships popping up everywhere.
Just like me going to this dinner . It's going to remind me of how much fun we had on the way to o'block last time . Or how he gave me one of the best kisses to calm me down , then walked me inside the house , not leaving my side until I settled down and got calm .
No matter how I feel about him now , he was a great boyfriend. I felt protected with him and I felt loved . He brought me joy , gave me everything I asked for and had so many big plans for us .
I'm not about to say I miss him because I obviously dodged a bullet . Two kids , ghetto ass baby mommas , and anger problems. Who wanted to be in a relationship with that ? Not me !
I'm actually glad I left . It's so much more I have to do in life before I settle down . And to be honest , He's most likely not even my soulmate.
I snap out of my thoughts and pull up in front of Vons grandmas house then do a quick pep talk before I walk towards the door .
I sigh loudly and give it a light knock "give me strength " I mumble
The door swings open and I gulp the knot in my throat down . "Ooouuu yall Kennedy's here !"
