hope you guys enjoy this one!
requested by bettysaffections
concept: betty has an eating disorder, jughead eventually finds out and helps her recover
trigger warning: eating disorder, please do it read if this stuff makes you uncomfortable!
in no way am i trying to make fun of eating disorders, this is serious, please reach out if you struggle.
bpov:
i am so messed up, i was throwing up my first meal of the day already, it was only 8am, i was busy hurling up my food, i just kept doing it, I was disgusted in myself. i hadn't told jug yet, i feel like he'd look at me differently, i loved him with my entire heart i couldn't lose him, i wiped my mouth and got ready for school, throwing on a hoodie and some jeans
"good morning hunny! are you okay, you look a bit sick?" my mom asked as she walked over to me inspecting how i looked, she didn't know about my eating disorder it would crush her if she found out about it
"yeah i'm fine mom, don't worry, i'm going to head off to school now, i love you"
"i love you too hunny!" she called as i walked out the door.
"hey betts! right behind you!" i heard jug shout from behind me
"hey jug" I said weakly as he caught up with me and kissed my head
"you okay love? you look a bit sick" he asked worriedly
betty tell him, he'll still love you
"yeah, i-i-"
nope i can't
"-i'm just tired that's all" i lied, god i hated lying to him
"you sure?" he stopped me and grabbed my wrist, my skinny, boney wrist
"yeah i'm sure jug" i gave him a fake smile, trying to make it seem believable
"okay, come on, we're gonna be late love" he grabbed my hand and squeezed it
at school
"betts, you ready for lunch?" i heard jug say from behind me
"yeah, let me just go the toilet, i'll be out in a sec" lie, i wanted to throw up again
"betts, not trying to overstep, but are you on your period, your going to the toilet an awful lot" he asked worriedly again
"umm yeah, i am" he literally just gave me a valid excuse
"okay, hope your feeling okay my love, i'll see you out there" he kissed me and strolled outside
i ran into the bathroom and flung myself into a cubicle and started to stick my fingers down my throat hurling up everything until i heard a gasp
cheryl
"cousin betty! are you okay?" she asked, running into my cubicle
"yes cheryl, i'm fine, please leave me alone" i cried quietly
"no betty, you have an e-eating dis-disorder" she whispered
"i know cher, i know, please please don't tell jughead, i'm begging you" i pleaded
"cousin, i can't just sit by and watch you waste away"
"okay okay, i'll tell him, just not right now, i'll tell him soon i promise" she rubbed my back and kissed my hair
"i'm here for you cousin, i'm here" and with that she left i knew i needed to tell him, i just needed to wait for the right time
"betts? you not eating my love?" jug said after he'd noticed i'd been pushing my food around my plate, cheryl gave me a glare from her table
"i'm not to hungry actually, i had a big breakfast" i smiled fake
"it's just, you look like you haven't eaten in a while" he rubbed my back
"i have juggie, don't worry okay?" i kissed his shoulder and watched him go back to talking to our friends, they all looked so happy, healthy, why couldn't i be like them?
it was the end of school and i had successfully gotten through the day without swallowing any food, i was about to walk home when jug shouted from behind me
"betty! movie at my place?" he caught up with me
"umm, jug i don't know" i shrugged
that would mean eating with him
"please betts, we haven't had a movie night in ages" he whined i gave in
"okay okay fine" i sighed he said nothing and grabbed my hand and walked me to his trailer
"popcorn or sweets?" which was less fatty?
"popcorn please" he chuckled and grabbed some popcorn from his cupboard
"coke or fanta?"
"do you have diet coke?"
"umm yeah we do, here" he passed me the cold can
"come on then m'lady, what film?" he asked after we'd plopped ourselves onto his bed
"you pick" i smiled
"rebel without a cause?" he guessed
"you read my mind" i giggled, the first one I'd given in a while
after two hours i needed the toilet, fuck, this was the day he'd find out how fucked up his girlfriend was
"betts, i'm gonna go refill the popcorn, you want anything else?"
perfect timing
"no no, i'm okay thanks, just gonna go to the toilet" and with that i ran into his bathroom, locking the door and stuck my fingers down my throat throwing up all the food i'd eaten in that two hours, i was gross i stopped as soon as there was a knock at the door, a small, timid desperate knock
"betty, please open the door, you don't have to keep doing this to yourself, please just let me in and help you, i'm begging you" he started to cry
"j-jug i-i-i'm sorry" i whimpered, shuffling to unlock the door, only to meet his red eyes, face stained with tears, he said nothing but crouched down and sat on the cold bathroom floor, flushing the toilet and pulled me into a huge hug, stroking my hair
it's okay, your not on your own anymore, i'm here to help you i promise, let me help you betts" he whispered into my hair
"i'm so sorry juggie" i cried into his embrace
"no don't you dare be sorry love, don't you dare, i'm sorry i didn't notice before, but i'm here to help you now, i promise" he scooped me back up and placed me into his bed and held me
"why'd you do it baby" he said playing with my hair
"i don't really know, i always see these girls who are so skinny and can fit into any clothes and pull them of and it just made me think that i'm not like that, i'm fat and i can't pull anything off" i sobbed he pulled me into another hug
"don't say your fat, your not fat betty, your so fucking beautiful, you can pull anything off if your mind to it okay?" he rubbed my back trying to soothe my cries
"thank you jug" i wrapped my arms around him
"no problem betts, i'm here now, i love you"
"i love you too" he climbed out of bed i didn't say anything i was too tired
"here, have a yoghurt, i heard they're good for eating disorders, to help with recovery you know?" he kissed my head and placed the yoghurt into my hand
"thank you" i said gratefully, i could finally eat something without feeling guilty
after eating i snuggled into his chest
"i love you jug"
"i love you too my love" he stroked my hair and held me until i fell asleep.
my recovery was long, but i got there in the end with his help, i was happy
i hope you guys enjoyed that one!
if you are struggling with an eating disorder please talk to someone you aren't alone
i will hopefully be posting again later tonight
love you all❤️
L🦋
