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trigger warning, this one shot contains talks of suicide and suicidal acts, please please do not read if this one shot will make you uncomfortable!
I currently do not know any suicide hotlines off by heart and can't find ones for both the UK and America/Canada but please talk to one if you know ones and talk to a mental health professional who can help you and support you I'm always here if anyone needs to talk as well :)
this is all in Betty's pov.
the song at the top of the chapter is supposed to be played with this one!!
bpov:
I ran out of chapstick today, i used all of my shampoo and conditioner all in one last night.
"need anything from the store today honey, I'll add it to my list" my mom shouted up the stairs
I knew I did, I needed shampoo and conditioner, desperately needing more chapstick but running out of this things were my sign, my sign to leave
"no thanks mom, I'm okay" I put on my happy smiley voice,
"is Jughead coming around today?" she asked after I skipped downstairs
"umm I pretty sure he is, why?" I looked up from my school work that was now piled up on the table, pulling my jumper down to hide my scarred wrists which even Jughead didn't know about it would break him if he did i couldn't do that to him, it was to selfish
"is he staying for dinner? just so I know I can make extra" she shoved her stuff in her purse
"you know him mom, he probably will" I laughed softly
time skip 2 hours
"Betts? You home? I brought my work I was hoping you could maybe help me?" my sweet boyfriend knocked gently on my door, i wiped my tears and pulled my hoodie down once again over my fresh cuts made minutes ago
"yeah, come on in, I'll give you a hand" he walked in with a big grin on his face
"hey baby" he came over and kissed my cheek softly
"hey, how was the serpent meeting love?" he was the one thing keeping me alive
"stressful, but we got there in the end" he smiled, laying down on my bed, pulling me with him, laying my head on his chest, rubbing his hands through hair, the last time he was stroke the smooth hair, not the greasy, knotty hair that would soon take place in the next days before I did it
"good, I'm proud of you" I smiled kissing his cheek and laying back down, letting him run circles all over my back
time skip 3 days
today was the day, the day I was going to end it all, I'd written down letters in my notes to everyone, I was looking at the bottle of pills sat in front of me, I was reaching forwards to grab them when I heard a gentle knock on my bathroom door
"babe? I went to the store I got you some stuff are you nearly done in there" he said, I could hear him place the bag on my vanity
"yeah I'll be out in a sec" I called, gently wiping my tears, I guess my time would have to wait, I threw on my hoodie, yet again covering my fresh cuts, I walked out to see him taking the stuff out of the bag, it was just some food at first I sighed in relief he'd be gone soon
"I got some snacks for you, your mom said you didn't have your favourites and I bought you some new chapstick, I noticed you'd ran out, and when I went to shower there was nothing in there so I got some shampoo and conditioner as well," he smiled at me
chapstick, shampoo, conditioner
This man had single handedly saved me without knowing i burst into tears and ran to him, throwing myself into his arms, I wrapped my legs around his waist and buried my head into the crook of his neck, sobbing and letting the tears fall freely down my face, he rubbed my back soothingly
"what's wrong babe" he placed the bag down and sat me on me on the bed, whispering sweet nothings into my hair
"m-me, I'm what's w-wrong Jug, I was g-going to end it a-all just because I ran out of s-some stupid ch-chapstick" I bawled he let out a sigh
"I knew something was wrong, why didn't you come and talk to me, you know I would of listened Betts" I could hear his voice breaking
"I d-didn't want t-to dis-disappoint you"
"you could never ever disappoint me Betty, never in a million years could I be disappointed of you, please talk to me what's going on" he pulled away, peppering my face with soft gentle kissed tears now trickling down his face, I wiped them away with my thumb, him doing the same to me
"it all just got to much you know, i was trying so hard to be the perfect girl, for you, my mom, Veronica, Archie hell even Kevin" I threw my hands up in despair, he just pulled me back in
"Betts, you know you don't have to be perfect for me, not for anyone, you don't anyone anything your allowed to break down and have bad days were you don't have to be perfect my love, no ones perfect, please don't feel the pressure to be perfect" he kissed my nose
"I-I'm sorry" I sobbed loudly
"why? baby why are you sorry" he soothed me again
"because I didn't tell you and instead I-" I sighed softly and rolled my sleeves up, to show my old and new cuts, he gasped, gently pulling my arm up to his view, he placed gentle kisses on all of them, all the way up to my arm and to my lips, I could taste his tears on my skin
"it's okay, I'm here now, you don't have to go through this alone anymore Betts, I'm here, come on, I'll run you a nice warm bath" I nodded and he walked into the bathroom giving me some privacy to get undressed I heard him sigh at the sight of the bottle, he said nothing and chucked them in the bin, he poured bubbles in the bathroom and got himself undressed, I walked in, really letting my guard down, the vulnerable Betty Cooper was out to play, he said nothing and picked me up, and placing me on his lap in the bath
"it's okay my love, I've got you now" he kissed the crown of my head and helped me wash my body
"I love you Jug" I said after a comfortable silence
"and I love you even more" he smiled down at me
the man who saved me, never left my side and continued to buy me more chapstick when he knew I was struggling,
this man single handedly saved my life without knowing it
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