Frozen Feelings

Enough

To be honest
I don't know what it is
I can't pinpoint it
I'm just numb

I can't tell anyone the truth
I'd be sent away from all of this
As much as that sounds nice
I won't make any progress

I don't take care of myself anymore
I don't shower or eat
My body is always tired
My mind never sleeps

What used to be easy
Is impossible now
My days fly by
As I accomplish nothing

I'm doing the bare minimum
Hanging on by a thread
Just the bare minimum
Feels like it's too much anymore

My head feels foggy
My hands shake
I've lost it completely
In every single way

I'm captive by my emotions
Yet they're blank
I can't see anymore
White space

I've always been able to pull myself up
Find a way out
So why can't I this time
What's wrong with me now

Am I destined to stay here
Until I'm not who I was
When someone finally realizes
My hole has been dug

It would be relieving
To lay in the dirt
Even if it encompasses me
It's better than my life and work

Finally I could rest
Without feeling like a failure
Sure my family would be hurt
But they would get better

I'll sit here all night
Drowning in my sorrow
Suddenly before I know
Here is tomorrow

I'll stay in bed
Sleep and waste time
Until the sun falls
And I'm alone again