When I opened that email
My heart sank to the depths
I was suddenly lost at sea
With the waves crashing inWhen I filled out my application
I was trying not to get my hopes up
Everyone told me I would get in
My eyes filled, bottom to topWhen my vision blurred
My head spun
I felt like I needed this
What more could I have doneThe school of my dreams
A curriculum I yearned
School usually bores me
This, I wanted to learnI sat in my bed
My bones cold
I read it again
Every wordAfter months of preparation
After waiting months more
I was told my dream would wait
That my foot was slammed in the doorI lost a spark that day
I lost a piece of my heart
The profession I love
Tore me apartForced to face the consequences
Of giving up on the semester
My gpa dropped
Only to hinder me laterLike everything else that year
My mind spun in circles
What more can I take
Of life's circusI hadn't told many people
For I had a bad feeling this would come
That didn't make it hurt less
I still had to tell everyoneSo when they told me I wasn't good enough
That my blood sweat and tears wouldn't do it
I made the most of this year
I pushed myself to my limitThey want a well rounded applicant
Then that is what they will get
This time I'm ready
I'm not just desperate
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Frozen Feelings
PoetryThis book outlines the pain I experienced in my past and the things that I look back on. These are my greatest fears and worst moments. I'm not writing this for the public, but for myself