I woke up tonight
In the middle of my sleep
Then my mind decided
It had things to thinkYou would think the forefront of my mind
Would be focused on my ex
For he did cheat and break my heart
But I'm not thinking of himI'm thinking of you
Of how long I've been feeling this way
My last poem for you
Was just over one year agoI don't think you've noticed me
That you thought of me that way
Not that you ever said you would
My heart was just hoping it was a possibilityI've become incredibly anxious
Thinking about our conversation
Nothing will be left unsaid
That brings up 1,000 questionsI have to do it this time
I have to tell you how I feel
I can't be a hypocrite
I can't keep going back and fourthI've tried to move on from you
So it didn't come to this point
Yet every time I think I'm done
You prove me wrong once againI know it's probably a mistake
Where I'll end up in pain
I just can't shake the image
Of giving you that chanceMaybe I'm reading things wrong
Or believing what I want to hear
My heart won't settle
Until I know for sureIf you do break my heart in this conversation
Which is a reasonable outcome
I won't blame you for it
This is the web that I spunI'm not sure you understand
The power you hold over me
If I'm being completely honest
That terrifies meI'm going to put myself on the line
Knowing you probably can't relate
But you know what I would regret even more
Is never telling you what's in my brainI can't shake the feeling
That my heart holds for you and I
My mind tells me we deserve a chance
Even if it ends awryYour smile and your laugh
Make me giddy inside
Though not in person just yet
I feel lost in your eyesYou've got a lot to deal with right now
So I will wait patiently
I just had to officially say
The suspense is killing me
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Frozen Feelings
PoetryThis book outlines the pain I experienced in my past and the things that I look back on. These are my greatest fears and worst moments. I'm not writing this for the public, but for myself