One picture
Worth one thousand words
One photo
Brings back one thousand memoriesI don't miss you
But I remember you
I remember everything
Like it was yesterdayI remember laying in bed
Staring into your baby blue eyes
It seemed like time stopped
When you stared back into mineI remember going to movies
Taking off our shoes
Having mini thumb wars
While the scenes movedI remember cooking with you
Making crepes for your mother
Laughing while we danced
As the stove simmeredI remember driving with you
And at each red light
You would kiss me for a moment
While the whole world flew byI remember going out for food
Ordering through the drive through
We would sit and eat in the parking lot
And share our meals, though we didn't have toI remember going to your games
Watching you coach your team
You would always look over at me
As I sat there in the standsI remember moving you in
Decorating your dorm room
It was all pictures of us
They surrounded youI remember playing game pigeon
Back and fourth over text
We did this to distract ourselves
Like when I was doing my prepI remember brushing our teeth together
Holding each other's hands
You always had to go pee first
So I would wait there and standI remember cuddling in the living room
Running my hands through your hair
You would fall asleep each night
Then I would have to go upstairsI remember running with you
Right after my surgery
We weren't going fast
But you still encouraged meI remember kissing all around your face
To hear that precious giggle
Before we had to part ways
It made it a little less bitterI remember going to the baseball game
We barely even watched
I wore your jersey
As we talked and talkedI remember you picking me up from the hospital
Taking me to the subway
You forced me to eat my sandwich
You made me smile that dayI remember how you woke up in the morning
How you were grumpy until you ate
The way your eyes would shimmer in the sun
You always made me leave lateI remember ranting to you
About whatever happened during my day
You would pretend to listen
Then move on to your pointI remember meeting your family
Making them tie blankets as a gift
They all seemed to love me
They told you I was perfectI remember when you would hug me
The smell of your cologne
I felt safe in your arms
Like I could call you homeI remember laughing with you
Over all our inside jokes
We would laugh together
Over and over and overI remember meeting your friends
It was awkward at first
But they, too liked me
And told you to keep me closeI remember making out with you
My mind would float to another world
As you pulled away and said "I love you"
I would gently wipe your lipsI remember showing you my world
Letting you see the good and the bad
I told you literally everything
I trusted you like I never hadI remember moving in with you
When you said "this is forever"
It was the best and worst time
Trying to both be betterI remember doubting your love
Asking if everything was alright
Each time you always assured me
Everything is just fineI remember fighting in our living room
Until you made me cry
I layed in the corner of our room
For hours that nightI remember you leaving the apartment
During one of our arguments
When you came back after an hour
I couldn't stop cryingI remember finding the messages on your phone
That proved my intuition was right
You told her that you loved her, too
I gave up on the world that nightI remember packing your stuff
We had one more conversation
We hugged and kissed
Then we said goodbye for realI haven't seen you since that day
I rarely hear your voice
Though I hate what you did to me
I have these memories each nightI didn't list them all
That would take forever
And I can't sit here and think
About those empty promisesYou're the only person I've ever loved
The one who I gave my entire heart
I'll never be able to comprehend
How you easily tore it apart
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Frozen Feelings
PoetryThis book outlines the pain I experienced in my past and the things that I look back on. These are my greatest fears and worst moments. I'm not writing this for the public, but for myself