Frozen Feelings

Unspeakable

I closed the door
Leaned back the seat
And put my feet up on the dash

You tried to talk to me
But I was silent
I realized I've been holding back

Small talk turns to how I'm doing
I start crying uncontrollably
Letting you see the vulnerable side of me

What you don't know
Is those tears are your savior
The represent the frustrating truth

Though I wish I could tell you
The pain and hurt that you've caused
My lips always refuse to move

I want to yell at you
Tell you horrible things
I want you to know one ounce of this pain

You tell me you're going through it
As if you aren't the cause of all the pain
You really don't care how I've been doing

As my eyes blink slowly
And the tears descend
I realize that it's the end

I'll never say it to you
Though I probably deserve to
I care too much for your self worth

I'm not that girl anymore
The one who's voice went hoarse
From screaming the nastiest words

That's lucky for you though
Because what you did was horrible
And you deserve to listen and know

Though I may not get justice
I will get to heal
Onto life's next appeal

Between myself and I
For the record though
What you did was unspeakable