I'm sorry, I did it again
Searched for validation
As I swiped right and left
There was no beat in my chestI had just gotten home
From a 12 hour shift
You messaged me
Come overI hesitated at first
Too good to be true
So I had you confirm
It was really youThrough snapchat I saw
You were the same as before
I got ready to come meet you
Then I showed up at your doorYou looked better in person
I couldn't believe I was there
We had a good conversation
We both listened and sharedYou took control after a while
Cuddled me up in your arms
As we watched a movie
I felt your heart beat so hardI let you make the first move
You pulled my face close to yours
As we locked lips
I had no wordsI could tell you didn't want to stop
As you tugged on my clothes
As they swiftly hit the floor
You continued to come closeOne thing led to another
Until I was down on my knees
As you tried to control yourself
But I know how to pleaseYou didn't make me leave afterwards
You had me cuddle with you again
Although it was a little weird
You made me feel somethingYou said I surprised you
Why does everyone say that?
You said I'm a very bad girl
I replied... our secretYou were so genuine to me
I could tell you actually cared
I knew I wasn't just a body to you
At least I thought so before I leftAs I reminisced on our time together
I went back onto tinder
Only to notice your profile
Was gone from my matchesYou still had me on Snapchat, though
I was getting that bad feeling
I sent one small chat
PendingI really couldn't believe it
Congratulations to you
I usually get a good read on people
Turns out you're unpredictable, tooI can't help it, though
I remember the chain on your neck
You said so many times
We should hang out againNo matter what, it's over
The one spark I had in a while
Now that you also don't want me
It's gonna be hard to smileI just don't get it anymore
Why nobody is genuine enough
If you had just been upfront
This wouldn't be toughNow I'm done trusting again
I put it all on the line
I tried to leave it in the past
Here we are... one. more. time.Well thank you, Ryan
You confirmed that it's true
I can't trust anyone anymore
They all end like youA memory I covet
In the back of my mind
Though I want to go back
It's not worth my time
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Frozen Feelings
PoetryThis book outlines the pain I experienced in my past and the things that I look back on. These are my greatest fears and worst moments. I'm not writing this for the public, but for myself